by Shannon Tillman | Sep 24, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
My husband is chatty. Sometimes, he can miss another person’s attempts to say something in the conversation. I have been known to kick him under the table when I think he needs to stop talking and just listen. I wonder if Sarah should have used this strategy when Abraham’s words got them both in a lot of trouble.
Genesis 20:1-2
Now Abraham moved on from there into the region of the Negev and lived between Kadesh and Shur. For a while he stayed in Gerar, and there Abraham said of his wife Sarah, “She is my sister.” Then Abimelek king of Gerar sent for Sarah and took her.
Sarah is brought into a king’s harem because Abraham lied and said she was his sister. His words stemmed from fear of being killed because of her beauty. He was willing to sacrifice her integrity for his well-being. Sarah was taken from Abraham without a fight, not even an explanation of the truth. Thankfully, God intervened.
Genesis 20:3-7
But God came to Abimelek in a dream one night and said to him, “You are as good as dead because of the woman you have taken; she is a married woman.” Now Abimelek had not gone near her, so he said, “Lord, will you destroy an innocent nation? Did he not say to me, ‘She is my sister,’ and didn’t she also say, ‘He is my brother’? I have done this with a clear conscience and clean hands.” Then God said to him in the dream, “Yes, I know you did this with a clear conscience, and so I have kept you from sinning against me. That is why I did not let you touch her. Now return the man’s wife, for he is a prophet, and he will pray for you and you will live. But if you do not return her, you may be sure that you and all who belong to you will die.”
Abraham was a prophet who lied. Abraham was a prayer warrior who made a decision to not trust God but live in fear. Abraham’s sin led to potential sin for Abimelek. Abraham allowed his beloved wife to be taken from him without a fight.
Sarah was held captive in a foreigner’s house, knowing she could be violated at any moment. She was forced to live amongst pagan worshippers who most likely did not speak her language. Sarah had no one, not even her husband, willing to help her. How lonely and frightening the situation must have been.
God saw Sarah’s abandonment and chose to rescue her. God revealed the truth to Abimelek by telling him who Sarah really was. Abraham had hidden Sarah’s true identity. The Lord spoke the truth about the relationship.
God does the same for us. Others may have called you false names, marred your identity, created a false narrative, spread lies, and enjoyed the gossip. That is not the truth. The Lord reveals to us our true identity in Him. God rescues us and validates us from the enemy’s plans and sets us again in the place of our destiny.
Genesis 20:8-13
Early the next morning Abimelek summoned all his officials, and when he told them all that had happened, they were very much afraid. Then Abimelek called Abraham in and said, “What have you done to us? How have I wronged you that you have brought such great guilt upon me and my kingdom? You have done things to me that should never be done.” And Abimelek asked Abraham, “What was your reason for doing this?” Abraham replied, “I said to myself, ‘There is surely no fear of God in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.’ Besides, she really is my sister, the daughter of my father though not of my mother; and she became my wife. And when God had me wander from my father’s household, I said to her, ‘This is how you can show your love to me: Everywhere we go, say of me, “He is my brother.”’”
Abraham was a manipulator. He slyly told others Sarah was his sister and had her join in on the ruse, due to a technicality. He told part of the truth, while hiding the rest. All of this was to protect himself which put Sarah in danger. Abraham did nothing to free her from the situation that he himself caused. God intervened. The Lord not only rescued Sarah, he had the enemy vindicate her.
Genesis 20:14-16
Then Abimelek brought sheep and cattle and male and female slaves and gave them to Abraham, and he returned Sarah his wife to him. And Abimelek said, “My land is before you; live wherever you like.” To Sarah he said, “I am giving your brother a thousand shekels of silver. This is to cover the offense against you before all who are with you; you are completely vindicated.”
I love how Abimelek spoke to Sarah. Women were not addressed at this time, much less publicly honored in such a way. But this enemy king showed respect to Sarah while humiliating Abraham calling him her “brother”. The sarcasm is evident in the exchange. And Sarah, the wife abandoned by her husband’s lie, is now validated by the enemy telling the truth. Her honor disregarded privately by Abraham was esteemed publicly by Abimelek.
Genesis 20:17-18
Then Abraham prayed to God, and God healed Abimelek, his wife and his female slaves so they could have children again, for the Lord had kept all the women in Abimelek’s household from conceiving because of Abraham’s wife Sarah.
Sarah must have been in this difficult situation for awhile since there was enough time to realize that women were not conceiving in Abimelek’s household. Now, the family was healed. Sarah was vindicated. Abraham prospered with a thousand pieces of silver. God worked this all for good, despite what Abraham had done.
Sarah’s suffering and subsequent deliverance benefited those around her. A pagan king received a divine revelation from the Lord. Plus, Abimelek’s household was healed after prayer, testifying to the true God. A lying husband received a huge sum of money as well as freedom to settle in the land. Both her husband and an unbelieving king experienced God’s goodness in the wake of her difficult situation. Even those who harm us can benefit from God’s goodness to us. In whatever hardship you may be in, wait on the Lord. His deliverance will not only rescue you and validate you but will also be a testimony of His goodness to those around you.
by Kevin Tillman | Sep 17, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
The accusation was ridiculous. It did not even remotely tie into my character. (I do a lot of things wrong, but this particular lie was not one of my many sin issues.) The lie tied into cruel behavior unleashed against me. My heart was shattered into seemingly a billion unrepairable pieces. The devastation crushed my soul causing physical issues as well. I thought I could do nothing. But it was in the nothing that answers were found.
Psalm 37:7
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
What has come against you? Accusation, gossip, lies, demotion, brokenness…the list could go on. Where have others, inspired by the enemy, seem to have won against you? Think of that situation. How do you want to respond? Vindication, justification control, planning, yelling, revenge…the list could go on. Yet, God gives us the response: be still and wait patiently.
It looks like the enemy won. Be still and wait patiently. It looks like others, even our friends, have taken their side. Be still and wait patiently. It looks like we will never recover from all this. Be still and wait patiently. It looks like prayers will never be answered. Be still and wait patiently. It looks like it is becoming worse. Be still and wait patiently.
Being still and waiting patiently seem to be the opposite of appropriate responses. However, the Lord calls us to this because we are waiting on Him. We are not waiting aimlessly but waiting on the only intervention that will make an impact. God alone knows how to respond in a way that supersedes the situation. God alone knows all the underlying pieces and motivations behind what is going on. God alone knows the demonic playbook and how to turn what seemingly seems like an assured enemy victory into a crushing defeat. God alone knows how to use what the enemy used for evil to make it good not only for you but for others as well.
Be still and wait patiently. How do you know if you are following this command?
Psalm 37:8
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.
The absence of anger, wrath, and worry prove a heart that is still before God and waiting on Him. If any of these are in the heart, ask forgiveness and repent. We do not want the enemy who is working evil against us to entice us to our own evil choices. Instead, we must settle the war within and choose the way of God: Be still and wait patiently. Eventually, we will see the Lord’s intervention.
Psalm 37:9
For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.
Answers will come, situations will turn, what was lost will be restored. Until then, be still and wait patiently on the Lord.
by Kevin Tillman | Sep 11, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
It was just a Tuesday. Like every other day I was getting ready for work. Tuesday was staff meeting day, so I was moving through the same routine I had followed countless times before. Nothing about that day felt significant. It was just another day. While I was brushing my teeth and looking for a pair of matching socks, little did I know that the world was changing. Then, somewhere during the morning, I turned on the television. Like millions of people across the country, I watched as smoke was pouring from one of the twin towers of the World Trade Center. It was horrible, it was tragic. But, at the time it was just that. My thought process was somehow a commercial airliner had a malfunction, and I was seeing one of the worst tragedies in American history. It was that, but as we now know, it was actually far worse. Like so many others, the weight of the moment turned into an even deeper disbelief and horror. While watching live on television the second plane hit that second tower. Immediately the broadcasters knew, the viewers knew, everyone knew. In that moment, everything had changed. It was just a Tuesday, until it wasn’t just a Tuesday.
The rest of that day saw more and more catastrophe. By the end of the day, two more planes had been hijacked. One hitting the Pentagon. Another being taken down heroically in a field in Pennsylvania. We continued to watch as the towers collapsed. People jumping from the high skyscrapers. Almost 3,000 people lost their lives that day, including so many first responders that intentionally went into the buildings to rescue others. It was just a Tuesday, until it wasn’t just a Tuesday.
That evening people were looking for answers. We were all looking for answers. Where do we go? What do we do now? The country was in shock. All flights had been shut down. Life as we had known it had changed in an instant. That evening the church I served at had an impromptu prayer meeting, as did many other congregations across the country. This was a last minute thing. No time to rehearse songs. No time to prepare sermons. No time to advertise. Besides, what do you say in a time like this? So, we just opened the doors and the altar for prayer. To this day, I believe that is the largest prayer meeting I have attended. Without a doubt it was the most emotional prayer meeting I have attended. I remember tears. Those that weren’t weeping visibly, were most certainly weeping internally. The room was somber. I remember people that never prayed out loud in public, passionately praying to God. No one knew how to say it, but we all felt it. This event, this day was different. No one had answers. No one knew what was next. So, we did the only thing we knew to do… We prayed!
I remember that day. I remember that Tuesday, that wasn’t just a Tuesday. I remember that prayer meeting. Praying was the right thing to do. At the time it felt like the only thing to do. But, here’s the question that comes to mind 25 years later: Why does it so often take a tragedy to bring us to prayer? As we answer that, I admit that crisis prayer is real prayer. We should pray in those times. The Bible is full of people crying out to God when they are in distress. But why does it take these events to bring us to this place of prayer?
A deeper concern is that dependence on God that is awakened by tragedy is often replaced by self-sufficiency when ordinary life returns. This shock of the crisis lasted long enough to fill our pews, but it didn’t last long enough to change our habits. For a few weeks in 2001 we prayed with a desperation for God. Then, life slowly returned to normal, and so did we.
The battle cry of the country over those few months was “Never Forget”. It could be seen on signs, bumper stickers, t-shirts, memorials. It was everywhere. We said it because we meant it. We wanted to honor the sacrifice of those first responders, and remember all of those innocent people who lost their lives. We said “Never Forget” and we meant it. To this day, I would agree that we haven’t forgotten 9/11 and the horror of that day. But, could it be that there are things we haven’t necessarily forgotten, but we no longer allow to shape us? Could it be that we remember the tragedy of that day, but fail to remember the utter dependence on God from that day?
This isn’t just about that Tuesday in 2001. We do this all too often. We cry out to God when the diagnosis comes. We cry out to God when the relationship is on the rocks, or the job is ending. We pray with an intensity in the middle of the storm, but lose our focus when the skies begin to clear.
On this 25th anniversary of 9/11 ceremonies will take place. Names will be read and flags will be lowered. The videos and the images will be broadcast. We should remember. We should honor those lives that were unfairly lost. We should honor those first responders that ran toward danger, and the ordinary citizens that displayed great courage. But, perhaps we should also remember something else. We are still fragile. We are still dependent on the God that holds this world together. We still need Him, and we still need each other.
“Never Forget” should mean more than remembering what happened. It should mean remembering what mattered more than anything else on that Tuesday. We don’t need to wait on the next crisis to pray. Remember now. Pray now!
by Shannon Tillman | Sep 3, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
I want to share something with you that God showed me as I walked through one of the most difficult seasons of my life. I cried out to God and nothing changed. I fasted, and the situations seemed to only get worse. I held up the promises and yet the enemy’s agenda went forward. Every area of my life was impacted. There was nothing safe, nothing unharmed, nothing that was not permanently traumatized. Each month something terrible happened, to the point that I began to panic when a month was wrapping up. What horrible thing would happen next? My husband and I often just cried together, not having enough energy for words.
I was broken.
In the midst of the heartache, I felt the Lord impress a message on me. It was simple, but profound. And I hope that the simplicity of the words will help you in whatever difficult situation you may be walking through. Here is what I heard from God:
It is time to switch questions. No longer ask “God, why did this happen?”. Instead ask, “God, how do I pray?”
It was a turning point. I will be honest; the switch did not come quickly. Sometimes, I still resort to the first question. But slowly I am learning to seek the guidance of the Lord on how to pray into the situation. Through this, He began taking me to Scriptures to specifically pray over each of the many difficulties we were facing. I compiled a list of over eighty promises. I wrote them on notecards. On extremely difficult days, I would just hold the cards up because I did not even have the emotional energy to pray aloud. But I wanted to show that I still believed the promises were true although my situations continued to spiral out of control.
And I want you to know that the prayers are still not answered. I am waiting. But I have learned to pray like I never knew before. And I wait in trust. Because unknowingly, when I asked God why the situations had happened, I was allowing myself to be open to doubting the goodness of God. Is this not as old as the Garden of Eden? The enemy wanted Eve to doubt God’s goodness, thus making decisions without Him. The enemy wanted me in my pain to resort to my own methods, avoiding prayer. Now, I trust that He allowed the enemy’s attack for a purpose. God does not want bad things to happen but allows them so goodness is achieved in the end.
One of the good things that have come out of the painful situations is that the difficulties taught me to pray. And I know the Lord’s prayer strategy is more powerful than the enemy’s orchestrated assault. And whatever the enemy comes against me with, I know the Lord can show me how to pray. Eventually, I will see the plans of the enemy defeated. God will have victory.
