by Kevin Tillman | Mar 5, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
When Life Feels Stuck
What God May Be Doing When Nothing Seems to Be Moving
There are seasons when life seems to move forward without much effort. New opportunities appear. The Doors open and the decisions feel clear.
And then there are those “other” seasons. The seasons where everything seems to stall. Nothing makes sense. And, life just seems hard.
You keep doing the things you know to do. You pray. You work. You go to church. You try to stay faithful with the responsibilities in front of you. Yet, somewhere in the back of your mind thereâs a quiet question that starts showing up.
Is anything actually changing? Is anything ever going to change?
Itâs not always discouragement. Sometimes itâs just the feeling that youâre standing still while time keeps moving. The world is still spinning and others seem to be content and happy, but not you.
Obviously we donât enjoy those seasons. We like progress. We like the sense that something is happening. When that feeling disappears, it can leave us wondering whether weâve somehow missed the direction God intended for us.
But if you read Scripture carefully, you begin to notice that many of the people God used most walked through long stretches where nothing seemed to be happening at all.
Joseph spent years in places he never planned. What began as betrayal eventually led to prison. Those years must have felt confusing at times. Yet later it became clear that God was arranging circumstances Joseph himself could never have orchestrated or imagined.
David had already been anointed as the future king of Israel long before he actually wore the crown. Between those two times were years of uncertainty and waiting. Some of those years were even spent hiding in caves. From the outside, it might have looked like his life had taken a wrong turn. Yet God was shaping something in him. There was a preparation going on in the background.
There is a quiet and subtle kind of work God often does in seasons where movement feels slow. This is where character is formed. Patience develops. Perspective begins to change in ways that only time can produce. Those things rarely happen in the fast-moving times of life. They tend to grow in the quiet ones.
One of the challenges with feeling stuck is that we measure progress mostly by visible change. New opportunities and new direction. But, sometimes God measures progress differently. He’s working beneath the surface in ways that arenât immediately obvious.
The things matter more than you likely realize are… The way you respond to frustration and the faith you display even when life feels routine. The willingness to keep walking with God despite not having clarity.
Looking back over the years, many believers discover that some of the seasons they once described as âstuckâ were actually seasons where their lives were being prepared for something they couldnât yet see. Itâs difficult to recognize that while youâre in the middle of it. In the moment, it often feels like standing in the same place longer than you expected, and it can be frustrating. Still, the absence of visible change does not mean the absence of Godâs work. Often the most important things God develops in a life happen slowly. Gradually enough that you may not notice the change while itâs happening. But one day you look back and realize something is different. Something has shifted. I’m the same person, but I’m not the same person. Your trust has deepened. Your perspective has matured. The things that once unsettled you donât carry the same anxiety… Youâve grown. That growth began during a season when you thought life had stopped moving.
So if you happen to be in a season where things feel slower than you hoped. If you feel “stuck” right now try not to assume that nothing is happening. Godâs work isnât always dramatic. It often unfolds little by little, shaping a life from the inside long before the results become visible on the outside.
The seasons that feel the most uneventful at the time are the very ones that prepare us for what comes next. If you feel stuck today, just realize you might be in the best place you can possibly be. Hold on to your faith, and keep moving forward. God’s still got this!
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 26, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
It happened again. I was faced with the same pattern of dysfunction. Why does change not happen? Why do relationships seem to be the same? What keeps lives from being different? In the midst of the difficult situation, I asked the Lord why someone, especially a believing someone, would continue in obvious wrongdoing against others. The Lord brought me to Acts 16 for the answer.
Acts 16:16a
Once when we were going to the place of prayer, we were met by a female slave who had a spirit by which she predicted the future.
This slave girl had an evil spirit that predicted events in the future. Why would the owners tolerate a demon in their lives, in their home, in their workplace?
Acts 16:16b
She earned a great deal of money for her owners by fortune-telling.
The presence of a demon profited the slave owners! Evil was permitted as long as there was a benefit. Sadly, this is true in us as well. Often, we do not confront obvious sin, which is evil and demonic, in our lives because there is a gain for us:
Sin of approval (people-pleasing, enabling, compromise, living for others not God) profits us for people to like us.
Sin of gossip profits us to create connections with some and exclude others.
Sin of addiction (which can include spending, social media, and video games) profits us to escape pain.
Sin of anger profits us to silence the opposition.
Sin of choosing what is comfortable (instead of what God is calling us to do) profits us to avoid accountability and possible failure.
Sin of control profits us to get our way.
Sin ofâŚ.we could list more, but the point is made.
If our sin profits us in some way, we allow it to the harm of ourselves and others. We can know what we are doing is wrong (just as the owners knew the source of their slaveâs ability was via an evil spirit) and still continue in our evil behavior.  We may even excuse our actions because of the benefits that come from it, refusing to acknowledge that the transgression is demonic in nature and the enemy has control of us in that area. A toleration of sin is a toleration of demonic influence around us. We think we are benefiting from our actions in some way but in truth the enemy is gaining the most advantage from the sin.
We need to quit allowing the enemyâs control in our lives by making the changes required of us. The time has come to confront the evil and cast it out: No more delays!
Acts 16:18b
âIn the name of Jesus Christ I command you to come out of her!â At that moment the spirit left her.
May we and others be set free when we choose to no longer profit from our sin.
by Kevin Tillman | Feb 19, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
Faith is funny because most of us think of it as a point we reached at some time in the past. A decision, a prayer, or a moment we could circle on a calendar. But, when you spend time with Abrahamâs story you start realizing his life didnât really work like that. Nothing about it was tidy enough to circle.
God didnât sit him down and explain the whole future. He told him to go⌠and promised clarity would come somewhere “out there” on the road. That had to feel strange. We prefer the opposite order. We want the explanation first so we can decide if obedience seems like a good idea or not. Thatâs where most of the tension lives for us. Not in believing God exists, but in moving without knowing how this whole thing is going to turn out.
What always stands out to me is that Abrahamâs biggest problems didnât come from rejecting God. They came from trying to help Him. Years had passed after the promise of a son. Silence was wearing on him. Eventually that waiting led to feelings of irresponsibility. So he made a decision that felt practical at the time. Not rebellious⌠practical. Thatâs what makes it relatable.
We do it all the time. We fill in the blank because God hasnât given us an answer. We push conversations forward because weâre tired of not knowing. We’re tired of waiting! We tell ourselves weâre just being wise or proactive. Later we realize we mostly just didnât like uncertainty and we missed having control. Control is comforting for a short period of time, but then it starts creating things we have to manage.
Thereâs something hard about letting God be slow. Not lazy slow⌠deliberate slow. It starts forming a patience in you whether you asked for it or not. I know in my life some of the hardest acts of faith have been the invisible ones. Not the big, bold decisions, but the subtle ones that required a quiet restraint. The moment you decide not to force an answer doesn’t receive applause. Actually, most people will never even know. But little by little, decision by decision it changes you.
You see it in Abraham building altars in different places along the way. No big speeches recorded. Just markers⌠God met me here, I trusted Him here, Iâm still trusting Him now. A life shaped more by repetition than intensity. A life shaped by a series of small choices. Transformation isn’t always some big dramatic moment. A lot of it just feels like returning to the same trust over and over again until it becomes instinct.
Then thereâs the moment nobody wants⌠that Isaac moment. The part of the story that always feels heavier when you slow down and reflect. God pressing His hand on the very thing that explained everything else in Abrahamâs life. The promise itself. I donât think surrender ever feels natural. It feels like handing God the one thing that finally made you feel settled and hearing Him say, trust Me with that too.
The strange part is how often peace shows up right after release. Not always immediately, but eventually. Carrying something tightly creates a constant fear of losing it. Giving it to God doesnât make it disappear⌠it just means the outcome isnât yours to hold together anymore.
By the time you reach the end of Abrahamâs life thereâs no dramatic closing scene. Scripture just says he died “satisfied with life”. I like that so much, because it sounds quieter than victory. More like someone who lived long enough to see that God had been faithful even when he wasnât. And somehow the faith kept going after him. Isaac had watched him long before Isaac ever had to trust God personally.
Thatâs usually how it works. People donât absorb faith mainly through what we say. They absorb it through what they keep seeing. How you react when things fall apart. Whether you panic or pray first. Patterns preach way louder than words, and their impact last longer.
Abraham didnât do everything right. Thatâs probably why his story helps. He veered off course more than once, but he kept turning back the same direction. Over time that direction mattered more than the detours.
Maybe thatâs what faith actually is. Not a flawless line forward. More like a person who keeps reorienting themselves toward God over and over and over. Some days confidently, some days barely⌠but still turning.
Eventually all those turns become a path. And one day you look back and realize the destination wasnât a place you arrived at all at once. It was the person you became while you kept walking.
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 12, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
My mom shuffled around the house, exhausted from a lack of sleep. Her blood pressure was elevated and she felt awful. However, she realized her physical condition was influenced by her emotions. Her body was responding to worry over a particular situation. While she knew she should not worry, she was struggling to stop the thoughts raging through her mind. Have you ever felt the same way?
John 14:1
Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.
The troubled heart points to unbelief. Any area where we are not believing God is the place where we are troubled. A troubled heart is an arrow pointing out the lie that we are believing over God. We need to follow the troubled heart so the lie is unveiled and truth be placed in the area where we struggle. It is not a matter of âtrying harderâ to not be upset, worried, or concerned. Instead, we are to press in and see what the troubled heart reveals about the state of our soul.
For example, I am troubled with a decision. I struggle with wondering if I can even make the right choices for my life. I could go on and explain my past family dysfunctions or terrible events I experienced or how painful situations occurred. But those only give the root of the problem, they do not solve my troubled heart. Instead, I must look at the area of God I do not believe. Bottom line, I do not think He will take care of me if I make the wrong decision. This reveals a deeper lie: I have to figure it out on my own for I do not really believe His guidance over my life. These lies that stem from my past cause a troubled heart in me whenever I face large decisions.
The thing with a troubled heart is that it is not necessarily troubled by everything. I do not struggle with financial concerns. I believe God is my Provider. I have experienced supernatural help from Him when in the natural I would not be able to make it another month. However, my husband finds a troubled heart in this area. When we were without jobs for a time, he would worry at night while I slept peacefully. His troubled heart pointed him to the lie that he had to be the one to figure out a solution, instead of trusting that God would reveal His plan in His time.
We need to evaluate our own troubled hearts to discover the area of our personal unbelief. Then, we can replace the lie with the Truth, with Jesus, of who He truly is to us, for us, in us, and through us. We do not have to shuffle around in life, weighed down by the troubled heart. Instead, we can walk confidently in every situation by faith in our God.
John 14:1
Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 5, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
The situation was already bleak. Unbelievably, the circumstances spiraled down further. I thought we were already at rock bottom when more bad news came. I did what I had done a thousand times; I reviewed my promise cards. (These cards are Bible verses that speak into my situation.) The words on the cards were a far cry from what I was facing. It seemed like I was holding onto a crazy dream. The facts were screaming loudly at me, mocking what seemed a delusional hope. The promises seemed to fade further away. Suddenly, I heard a statement in my heart:
âShannon, you can either believe the facts or the truth.â
I questioned the statement. âWhat is the difference between facts and truth?â
âFacts are your circumstances, the earthly reality. I Am Truth. Truth supersedes facts.â
Bible stories flooded my mind:
Fact:Â The Red Sea trapped the Israelites who were being threatened by the encroaching Egyptian army.
Truth: God had already given the Israelites the promise of their deliverance and the Egyptiansâ destruction. They finally saw it realized as they crossed through a pathway formed in the midst of the water which led to the drowning of the ensuing army.
Fact:Â Gideonâs 300 men army stood no chance against the Midianite army that sprawled throughout the valley.
Truth: God had already told Gideon that He would be with him and that all of the Midianites would be destroyed. Gideon and his army only blew their shofars and the enemy destroyed itself.
Fact:Â David and his men could not recover the loss of their families after they were kidnapped by the Amalekites.
Truth: God told David to follow them and recover all. David and his men found an abandoned, sick slave of the Amalekites who directed them to the raiding party. David and his men rescued their families as well as plundered the Amalekites.
Fact: Jesus died on a cross. He was wrapped in burial clothes and placed in a sealed tomb. It seemed like the end.
Truth: Jesus had already told His disciples that He would rise again and meet them in Galilee. Jesus always fulfills what He promises.
I do not know what facts of your circumstances may be looming over you. Let me encourage you, the facts are not the Truth. Godâs Word, Godâs ways will prevail.
Psalm 145:13b
The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does.
You can trust the Truth. The facts are not Truth. The facts can be changed in a moment. What was a fact a moment ago, may not be a fact now. Truth will have the final word. What He has promised, He will fulfill. Trust the Truth.
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 29, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
Once I knew a determined six-year-old who wanted to slide a three-month-old baby down a slide. Despite being told ânoâ, the conversation continued as she tried to figure out a way to persuade me otherwise:
âMay I slide the baby down the slide?â
âNo, we will not be sliding a baby down the slide.â
âWhat if I caught the baby at the bottom?”
âNo, not even if you caught her.â
âWhat if I slid down with her?â
âNo, we still cannot put a baby on the slide.â
âWhat if you slid down the slide with the baby?â
The questions continued until I told her that there was no realm of possibility that would create a situation where I would allow this baby to go down the slide.
She then yelled, âWell, I think it is a good idea!â
This story came to mind as I was thinking back on the blog post from last week which focused on the healing of the blind man in John 9. As I reviewed the passage, I was struck by how many questions this man had to face from multiple groups for a variety of reasons. A day of what should have been a celebration became a time of interrogation. Yet, he stayed steady in his response, no matter how many questions he heard. The first question stemmed from judgments formed by religious tradition.
John 9:1-2
As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, âRabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?â
At this time in Jewish history, physical ailments were considered to be the result of sin. With this false religious belief in mind, the disciples wanted to know who was the cause of the blindness, the parents or the baby in the womb. This man was blind, but not deaf, so he would have heard the prejudice, the judgment, the condemnation which were all given in the name of âreligionâ. This question could have stopped him from obeying the directions from Jesus, which would have stopped his miracle.
John 9:3, 6-7
âNeither this man nor his parents sinned,â said Jesus, âbut this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him⌠After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the manâs eyes. 7 âGo,â he told him, âwash in the Pool of Siloamâ (this word means âSentâ). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing.
The miracle of sight was quickly eclipsed by skeptical neighbors.
John 9:8-12
His neighbors and those who had formerly seen him begging asked, âIsnât this the same man who used to sit and beg?â  Some claimed that he was. Others said, âNo, he only looks like him.â But he himself insisted, âI am the man.â âHow then were your eyes opened?â they asked. He replied, âThe man they call Jesus made some mud and put it on my eyes. He told me to go to Siloam and wash. So I went and washed, and then I could see.â âWhere is this man?â they asked him. âI donât know,â he said.
The neighbors did not believe his testimony. They wanted to know how it happened and who made it happen instead of the fact that the miracle did happen! They questioned him in unbelief in an attempt to undermine his experience. They were not fully listening to his story for he had already said the âManâ sent him to the pool to wash while he was still blind. How would he know where the âManâ is or what He looked like? The formerly blind man just kept with his story in a sense saying: âI was blind, but now I see. Your skepticism does not negate my experience.â He would need to stand on the truth he did know as he was brought before the religious leaders.
John 9:13-17
They brought to the Pharisees the man who had been blind. Now the day on which Jesus had made the mud and opened the manâs eyes was a Sabbath. Therefore the Pharisees also asked him how he had received his sight. âHe put mud on my eyes,â the man replied, âand I washed, and now I see.â Some of the Pharisees said, âThis man is not from God, for he does not keep the Sabbath.â But others asked, âHow can a sinner perform such signs?â So they were divided. Then they turned again to the blind man, âWhat have you to say about him? It was your eyes he opened.â The man replied, âHe is a prophet.â
The religious leaders argued amongst themselves. The healing of this blind man was being used as a pawn in the opinion game. He would have realized that he was in the middle, no one was concerned about his sight, they were only concerned to bolster their side of the debate. He could have sidelined the argument, mumbling something like âI donât know.â Instead, this man, full of courage, stepped out in a bold statement of faith: âHe is a prophetâ. But his bold declaration is swept away by the determination of the religious group to hold onto their opinions.
John 9:18-23
They still did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight until they sent for the manâs parents. âIs this your son?â they asked. âIs this the one you say was born blind? How is it that now he can see?â âWe know he is our son,â the parents answered, âand we know he was born blind. But how he can see now, or who opened his eyes, we donât know. Ask him. He is of age; he will speak for himself.â His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who already had decided that anyone who acknowledged that Jesus was the Messiah would be put out of the synagogue. That was why his parents said, âHe is of age; ask him.â
The parents testified to the fact that he was truly the formerly blind man, but they refused to take a side in the debate about Jesus. These parents had lived with the stigma of judgment all of their sonâs life. Others blamed them or their son for some sin leading to his blindness. They barely had religious standing at this point. Now, they were on the brink of losing it all. They choose to stay sidelined in the fight which in turn brought their son back into the interrogation room.
John 9:24-26
A second time they summoned the man who had been blind. âGive glory to God by telling the truth,â they said. âWe know this man is a sinner.â He replied, âWhether he is a sinner or not, I donât know. One thing I do know. I was blind but now I see!â Then they asked him, âWhat did he do to you? How did he open your eyes?â
The man was subjected to more questions, but suddenly the interrogation changed. The one questioned became the one with questions.
John 9:27
He answered, âI have told you already and you did not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you want to become his disciples too?â
The man showed an increase of faith which had grown throughout the day. He went from âsome Man healed meâ, to âthat Man is a prophetâ, to âthat Man is who I want to follow as His discipleâ. The questions meant to attack his faith, instead caused him to build his case for Jesus!
John 9:28-34
Then they hurled insults at him and said, âYou are this fellowâs disciple! We are disciples of Moses!  We know that God spoke to Moses, but as for this fellow, we donât even know where he comes from.â The man answered, âNow that is remarkable! You donât know where he comes from, yet he opened my eyes.  We know that God does not listen to sinners. He listens to the godly person who does his will. Nobody has ever heard of opening the eyes of a man born blind.  If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.â To this they replied, âYou were steeped in sin at birth; how dare you lecture us!â And they threw him out.
The formerly blind man, judged his entire life as stricken by God, presented a clear case as of why Jesus is from God to the very religious leaders who judged him. What a turnaround! The message was clear and the religious leaders did not like it, so they went back to their false traditional beliefs and threw him out. The formerly blind man with perfect vision was about to have one last question to give him perfect spiritual insight.
John 9:35
Jesus heard that they had thrown him out, and when he found him, he said, âDo you believe in the Son of Man?â
After a day of questions that attacked his experience, attacked his miracle; he was finally asked the question that led to eternal life.
John 9:36-38
âWho is he, sir?â the man asked. âTell me so that I may believe in him.â Jesus said, âYou have now seen him; in fact, he is the one speaking with you.â Then the man said, âLord, I believe,â and he worshiped him.
The one who was questioned all day, asked the most important question in life: âWho is He so I may believe?â Who is this Jesus? This is not like the questions he had experienced of people who wanted to have opinions about Jesus. He asked the question to make a firm decision about Jesus. It was a question with an answer, âLord, I believeâ. You are more than a Man. You are more than a Prophet. You are more than a Teacher who I want to disciple me. You are Lord, and there is no question about that.
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 22, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
I have a sister who can throw the best parties. She will ensure the food, the games, the decorations, and even the clothing all point to the theme. She takes a simple gathering to a whole new level of fun! Parties are meant to celebrate people, holidays, and special occasions. Yet, in the scripture, there is a miracle left uncelebrated due to religious tradition.
John 9:1-3, 6-7
As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, âRabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?â âNeither this man nor his parents sinned,â said Jesus, âbut this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in himâŚÂ  After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the manâs eyes. âGo,â he told him, âwash in the Pool of Siloamâ (this word means âSentâ). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing.
A man born blind came home with sight. I believe this is a reason for a party! However, instead of a celebration, he received questions.
John 9:8-12
His neighbors and those who had formerly seen him begging asked, âIsnât this the same man who used to sit and beg?â Some claimed that he was. Others said, âNo, he only looks like him.â But he himself insisted, âI am the man.â âHow then were your eyes opened?â they asked. He replied, âThe man they call Jesus made some mud and put it on my eyes. He told me to go to Siloam and wash. So I went and washed, and then I could see.â  âWhere is this man?â they asked him. âI donât know,â he said.
After the man was interrogated by his neighbors, he was taken by his neighbors to the religious leaders. The Pharisees were not planning on throwing out celebratory confetti but pointed accusations.
John 9:13-17
They brought to the Pharisees the man who had been blind.  Now the day on which Jesus had made the mud and opened the manâs eyes was a Sabbath.  Therefore the Pharisees also asked him how he had received his sight. âHe put mud on my eyes,â the man replied, âand I washed, and now I see.â Some of the Pharisees said, âThis man is not from God, for he does not keep the Sabbath.â But others asked, âHow can a sinner perform such signs?â So they were divided. Then they turned again to the blind man, âWhat have you to say about him? It was your eyes he opened.â The man replied, âHe is a prophet.â
His first day with sight and he was thrust into a debate amongst the religious leaders! He was not allowed to marvel at the sky, flowers, the faces of people, or even the sight of the synagogue. Instead, he was used as a pawn of the Pharisees in attempts to justify their opinions against Jesus.
Even the parents of this formerly blind man were afraid to openly celebrate the miracle that had taken place.
John 9:18-23
They still did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight until they sent for the manâs parents.  âIs this your son?â they asked. âIs this the one you say was born blind? How is it that now he can see?â âWe know he is our son,â the parents answered, âand we know he was born blind. But how he can see now, or who opened his eyes, we donât know. Ask him. He is of age; he will speak for himself.â His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who already had decided that anyone who acknowledged that Jesus was the Messiah would be put out of the synagogue. That was why his parents said, âHe is of age; ask him.â
Out of fear of being forced out of the synagogue, his parents held back. They probably wanted to jump for joy, but instead they had to divert questions to stay within the religious community. However, their formerly blind son boldly spoke to the Pharisees, no matter the cost.
John 9: 32-34
Nobody has ever heard of opening the eyes of a man born blind. If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.â To this they replied, âYou were steeped in sin at birth; how dare you lecture us!â And they threw him out.
A man was born blind. Jesus healed the man. Neighbors questioned the healing. Pharisees mocked the Healer. A man declaring the miracle of sight was thrown out by religious leaders. What a confusing day: instead of a celebration, it turned into chaos.
John 9:35
Jesus heard that they had thrown him out, and when he found him, he said, âDo you believe in the Son of Man?â
Jesus searched for the man discarded by the religious leaders. The Pharisees had questioned the manâs beliefs and denied the power of his miracle. Jesus also asks a question but to bolster his faith because of this miracle. The man so desperately needed to know what to believe about what he had experienced.
John 9:36-37
âWho is he, sir?â the man asked. âTell me so that I may believe in him.â Jesus said, âYou have now seen him; in fact, he is the one speaking with you.â
I love this moment. Jesus is saying âyou are seeing the Son of Man, you are seeing the Messiah.â Can you imagine that on your first day of sight you are able to see God in the flesh? Amazing! Jesus then goes further by reminding the former blind man of his voice. Hours earlier he had heard this same voice telling him to go and wash his blind eyes in the pool of Siloam. The voice is now connected to the Son of Man, the one who spoke earlier and was speaking at that moment.
John 9:38
Then the man said, âLord, I believe,â and he worshiped him.
It was a small celebration, not the community party as expected. But Jesus Himself showed up for this man. The miracle of physical sight led to the miracle of spiritual sight. The day started with a random Man putting mud on his blind eyes. His discussion with the Pharisees led to him thinking that Jesus was a prophet. However, the day ended with the healed man acknowledging Jesus as Lord!
Others may not appreciate your spiritual journey. There may be those who question you. Others may try to talk you out of your beliefs. You may experience the silence of so-called âsupportersâ and the rejection by those you thought were âreligiousâ. I want you to know that Jesus celebrates you. All the heartaches may be leading you to a deeper relationship and understanding of Him. Even if only Jesus shows up at your party, the celebration is perfect!
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 15, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
The kingdom had already been shaken by an attempted coup. Lives were lost. Women were assaulted. A king was shamed. Yet, the lesson was not learned. For David, the greatest king of Israel, whose son Absalom was killed in battle after his false attempt to take the throne, had to once again deal with another sonâs treacherous revolt.
1 Kings 1:5-6
Now Adonijah, whose mother was Haggith, put himself forward and said, âI will be king.â So he got chariots and horses ready, with fifty men to run ahead of him. (His father had never rebuked him by asking, âWhy do you behave as you do?â He was also very handsome and was born next after Absalom.)
The question never asked was âwhyâ. Why are you behaving this way? This would have helped uncover motivation. It may have changed the manâs heart.  However, David did not directly challenge his son. This is the exact pattern we see with Adonijahâs older brother Absalom.
2 Samuel 15:1-4
In the course of time, Absalom provided himself with a chariot and horses and with fifty men to run ahead of him. He would get up early and stand by the side of the road leading to the city gate. Whenever anyone came with a complaint to be placed before the king for a decision, Absalom would call out to him, âWhat town are you from?â He would answer, âYour servant is from one of the tribes of Israel.â Then Absalom would say to him, âLook, your claims are valid and proper, but there is no representative of the king to hear you.â And Absalom would add, âIf only I were appointed judge in the land! Then everyone who has a complaint or case could come to me and I would see that they receive justice.â
Absalom was publicly setting himself up as the leader of the land, but David never confronted his actions. This took place for over four years until Absalom declared himself as king and ran David and his officers out of Jerusalem.
2 Samuel 15:13-14
A messenger came and told David, âThe hearts of the people of Israel are with Absalom.â Then David said to all his officials who were with him in Jerusalem, âCome! We must flee, or none of us will escape from Absalom. We must leave immediately, or he will move quickly to overtake us and bring ruin on us and put the city to the sword.â
David knew that Absalomâs heart would be for murder. He knew what Absalom was capable of, yet had chosen not to confront him sooner. Over the course of time, Absalom manipulated the peoplesâ hearts away from David and onto himself.  The tragic ending was that Absalom was killed in battle against his fatherâs troops.
Adonijah followed in his brother Absalomâs footsteps. Sadly, David followed his previous pattern of parenthood: there was no confrontation until the crisis of the attempted coup takes place. It could have cost more lives in the kingdom. This time David acted by setting Solomon on the throne. Adonijah was spared for the time being. But not long after, Adonijah did die after Davidâs death as he once again attempted to gain rights to the throne. King Solomon had him killed for his treachery.
Letâs return to the unasked question:
1 Kings 1:6
His father had never rebuked him by asking, âWhy do you behave as you do?â
What outcomes could have changed if David has asked Adonijah this question? What lives may have been spared including his own sonâs life? What changes may have been made? What destiny could Adonijah have fulfilled even though he was not called to be king? How many others were hurt along the way?
We will never know the answers to these questions. However, we can look into our lives and those we know and ask the question of why we behave as we do. Maybe for ourselves, it can reveal hidden motivations, secret sins, unresolved trauma, ignored pain, or other depths of our soul. This opens the door for healing and change. It can set us up on a better path and help us with future decisions and relationship dynamics.
Resolving our own issues, may not be as difficult as confronting those around us. Too often we see the problem, but do not say anything to the person. We may gossip about it with others and even analyze the dynamic amongst the group, but never directly address the person who is doing the damage.
Years ago, when I served as a childrenâs minister, a family in the ministry had children who were labeled âout of controlâ. They were discussed by Bible study teachers to staff. A certain member made fun of this family (which was ironic for their children were discussed as well as âout of controlâ by others. So easy to look at others and miss ourselves). The âministersâ gave their opinions as to why the family acted in such and such way. Being newer on staff I simply asked, âHas anyone ever talked to the parents?â Silence was quickly followed by excuses. It was easy to talk about the problem, but not actually take the initiative to confront the situation in order to give this family an opportunity for change.
I did talk to the mother. She listened and appreciated the conversation, though sadly, changes were not made. Years later, I spoke to the mother again for she called me in crisis with her teenager. I think the trust was there from the previous, difficult but honest, conversation. I shared the same things I had spoken years earlier. I do not know if changes were made. I do not know if the outcome is different.
Maybe Adonijah would not have changed even if questioned by David. But he was never given the opportunity. Often, we excuse ourselves out of the conversation instead of pressing into the difficult confrontation. If we see blatant sin in the lives of others, we are not called to just watch them, gossip about them, or give our opinions as to why they are acting in that way. Instead, what is seen needs to be addressed. They can choose change or not. We are called to do our part in addressing what is wrong and encouraging what is right. Just maybe a life can be completely changed, fully restored, amazingly transformed. But we will never know until we ask the question:
1 Kings 1:6b
⌠âWhy do you behave as you do?â
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 8, 2026 | Bible Study, Blog, Thoughts
When my grandmother progressed further into dementia, I noticed that she would change details of her life story to make herself sound better. It was almost as if she could not face mistakes from her past so she would twist the story with a new ending to feel better about previous choices.
It is not only dementia that causes these âchanging storiesâ. Sometimes, we can look at situations and rewrite them to justify ourselves to not face the full weight of wrongs we have committed. Aaron experienced this first hand in dealing with the golden calf.
Exodus 32:1-4
When the people saw that Moses was so long in coming down from the mountain, they gathered around Aaron and said, âCome, make us gods who will go before us. As for this fellow Moses who brought us up out of Egypt, we donât know what has happened to him.â
Aaron answered them, âTake off the gold earrings that your wives, your sons and your daughters are wearing, and bring them to me.â So all the people took off their earrings and brought them to Aaron. He took what they handed him and made it into an idol cast in the shape of a calf, fashioning it with a tool. Then they said, âThese are your gods, Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt.â
Aaron made an idol. He used a tool to create it. However, when Moses came down from the mountain, Aaron had a different story.
Exodus 32:21-24
 He said to Aaron, âWhat did these people do to you, that you led them into such great sin?â
 âDo not be angry, my lord,â Aaron answered. âYou know how prone these people are to evil. They said to me, âMake us gods who will go before us. As for this fellow Moses who brought us up out of Egypt, we donât know what has happened to him.â So I told them, âWhoever has any gold jewelry, take it off.â Then they gave me the gold, and I threw it into the fire, and out came this calf!â
The calf somehow became magical when Aaron told the story. The little cow formed itself in the fire and jumped out when it was done. The fact that Aaron had fashioned it with a tool was conveniently left out in the retelling to Moses.
How often do we leave out parts of our story to make ourselves look better? When we are caught in sin, why do we justify ourselves and try to not make ourselves sound âso badâ? The truth is, we do not see our sin from Godâs perspective. Aaron had no idea how the Lord felt about what He had done. Moses knew, for God had told him earlier on the mountain:
Exodus 32:9-10
 âI have seen these people,â the Lord said to Moses, âand they are a stiff-necked people. Now leave me alone so that my anger may burn against them and that I may destroy them. Then I will make you into a great nation.â
Only the intercession of Moses kept Aaron and the nation from being destroyed. Aaron did not understand the seriousness of his crime, of his sin. The same is true with us. Often, we like Aaron, compare ourselves to the people as we read earlier in verse 22:
Exodus 32:22
 âDo not be angry, my lord,â Aaron answered. âYou know how prone these people are to evil.Â
The people are prone to evil, but Aaron did not say how he was prone to sin as well. The people wanted an idol; Aaron wanted to please the people. Both sins were worthy of destruction. Aaron thought he had just left out the detail of a fashioning tool. In truth, he left out the fact that he had sinned against a holy God. Aaron looked at the people and thought he had done better than them. He did not look at the God who had the right to punish him for his sins.
Exodus 32:35
And the Lord struck the people with a plague because of what they did with the calf Aaron had made.
The Lord knew it was the calf Aaron had made. There was no magical cow jumping out of the fire. Instead, it was pieces of gold fashioned into an idol. The attempts to change the story between Aaron and Moses could not be rewritten between Aaron and the Lord.
It is time to stop excusing sin, or making ourselves feel better by twisting the story to justify ourselves. When we do wrong, we need to confess the sin to the Lord as well as to those we have harmed by what we have done. The Lord already knows the truth about the details we attempt to leave out or rewrite. But God can help us to write new stories with better endings when we choose to learn from what we have done instead of minimizing it. Aaron never made another idol for the people. Instead, he was chosen by God to be the High Priest for the nation. That is a much better story ending, with no need for a rewrite.
by Kevin Tillman | Jan 1, 2026 | Blog, Thoughts
Most days donât begin with clarity. They begin with noise.
Notifications. Conversations. Responsibilities waiting in line before weâve even taken a breath. And somewhere between waking up and getting moving, we quietly decide what kind of day this will beâoften without realizing weâve done it.
Thatâs usually how years start too.
Not with bold resolutions or confident faith, but with momentum. We carry last year straight into the next one. Same worries. Same expectations. Same internal limits weâve learned to live with.
And yet, every now and then, God slows us down long enough to ask a better question.
Not, What do you want this year?
But, What are you actually expecting?
Most believers donât struggle with whether God is able. Weâve seen His faithfulness before. We know the stories. Weâve experienced His help in hard seasons. The issue isnât belief in Godâs power, itâs how much room we leave for it to work.
Paul says “God is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think”. That sounds encouraging until you realize where that power operates. Not around us. Not merely for us. But within us.
Which means the question isnât whether God can do more. The question is whether weâre open to receiving it.
Life has a way of closing us off. Disappointment teaches caution. Delay teaches restraint. Fatigue teaches survival. And before long, weâre still praying, but with guarded expectations. Still believing, but only for what feels reasonable.
We donât stop trusting God. We just put a lid on our faith.
God has never had trouble filling empty vessels. Scripture proves that again and again. What limits overflow isnât emptiness, itâs closure. A heart that has quietly decided how much God will “probably” do.
Sometimes we ask God for more while clinging tightly to control, comfort, and conclusions weâve already drawn. And God, in His mercy, waits. Not because He is unwilling, but because He will not force abundance into a closed life.
This year might not begin with God adding something new. It may begin with Him removing what has crowded your heart. Old fears. Old assumptions. Old expectations shaped by what didnât happen before.
Because more doesnât come from striving harder. It comes from opening wider.
Expecting greater isnât hype. Itâs trust. Believing bigger isnât denial, itâs alignment. Itâs choosing to let God be as big in your future as His Word says He already is.
You donât need a new plan for this year.
You donât need to carry pressure into it.
You donât need to manufacture change.
God has never asked that of you.
He has only asked for room.
So donât rush this year. Donât seal it shut with fear or lowered expectations. Stay open. Stay surrendered. Stay available. Let God interrupt your pace and exceed your assumptions.
Because when hearts open, heaven moves.
And more begins the moment we stop closing what God wants to fill.
