by Kevin Tillman | May 22, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
“The man with a cross no longer controls his destiny; he lost control when he picked up his cross. That cross immediately became to him an all-absorbing interest, an overwhelming interference. No matter what he may desire to do, there is but one thing he can do; that is, move on toward the place of crucifixion.”
A.W. Tozer
The term “Christian” has lost so much of it’s power over the years. In many ways it has become a mere label for someone that is mildly spiritual and attends a worship service on occasion. But, being a Christian is far more than attendance, and some mental assent to a set of beliefs. It’s far more than doing good deeds and treating people kindly. Sure, those are great things, and we are indeed commanded to do so. But …
Christianity is about surrendering.
“The man with a cross no longer controls his destiny…”
When we follow Jesus we relinquish our rights. We live in a society that promotes self, personal ambition, and control. The message of the gospel stands in stark contrast.
Luke 9:23
Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me.
These aren’t easy words. The first readers of Luke’s gospel would have completely understood the cross as being a symbol of death. A death that was public, very painful, and humiliating on top of that. Before Jesus died He had to carry His own cross to Calvary. It was a one way, dead end walk that was guaranteed to end in death. As we “take up our cross and follow Jesus”, we are giving up our rights. We have committed to a death walk. We can’t dictate our path, the cross determines it for us.
Practically for us, this means we don’t ask God to bless our ambitions. Instead we surrender and yield to His plan. We have to give up our false illusions of control. Does this come easy? Absolutely not. Is it a one time surrender? Jesus answers clearly by telling us it is “daily”. Everything in us wants to pursue self. To put it bluntly, we are selfish. That is our nature. But God’s plan is surrender.
“That cross immediately became to him an all-absorbing interest, an overwhelming interference.”
Once we pick up the cross, Tozer is asserting it should become our defining focus. It’s not some side gig or hobby. It’s not just an “add on” to our daily lives. It’s not some occasional religious duty we perform. The cross becomes everything. The cross isn’t just one compartment of our lives. The cross is our place of death. All our movements, all our decisions, all our relationships. All are absorbed by the cross. It is indeed an “interference”. It gets in the way of our choices.
“No matter what he may desire to do, there is but one thing he can do.”
As we continue living in this interference changes start happening. Our desires begin to change. Our decisions begin to change. It’s a holy interference. Denying self and taking up the cross goes against our selfish desires, but in time our entire identity starts changing. Pursuing Him becomes part of what we want to do. The things we once valued highly suddenly don’t seem as important. It’s a process, but it’s worth it.
Christianity isn’t just some set of principles. Jesus wasn’t just some prophet that gave some strong advice for living. We are called to die. This death can be hard and even humiliating. But, there’s life, real life on the other side.
Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
by Shannon Tillman | May 15, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
I am not made for politics. I get upset when the candidates are not kind in their speeches during a debate. I think they should get along and truly listen to one another. Maybe they could even hug at the end or at least give a friendly high-five. I would definitely make the other candidates uncomfortable and unsettled if the debate went my way. My problem is I want others to like me. I do not want to fight or even have a minor disagreement. I would rather us eat popcorn together and laugh over silly stories. In my little world, everybody should get along.
However, the truth is that not everyone is going to like us (even though I think we are amazing!) When we live for the acceptance of others, we remove our focus from God’s acceptance and calling over our lives. We can do everything “right” and still be “wrong” in the eyes of some.
Mordecai, whose story is found in the book of Esther, exemplifies someone consistently doing what was right. He raised an orphan cousin by the name of Esther. He gave her wise counsel in protecting her Jewish heritage so she would not be targeted by prejudice in the royal courts. When Esther became queen, Mordecai still checked on his adopted child to ensure her well-being. When a murderous plot came against the king, Mordecai informed Esther so that the king’s life was spared. Mordecai refused to bow down to an evil man named Haman and was willing to risk his life in doing such a noble deed. Besides all of that, it was Mordecai who encouraged Esther to risk her life to save her people from the murderous plot by Haman that would have wiped out every Jew in the entire kingdom. Mordecai wrote letters to help the Jews so that they were able to defeat the enemy. These actions are still celebrated thousands of years later during the Jewish holiday of Purim. Mordecai had remarkable achievements including being promoted to the highest-ranking official in the kingdom.
Esther 10:3
Mordecai the Jew was second in rank to King Xerxes, preeminent among the Jews, and held in high esteem by his MANY fellow Jews, because he worked for the good of his people and spoke up for the welfare of all the Jews. (emphasis mine)
Did you catch that? Mordecai was held in high esteem by “many” fellow Jews, but not all. This a reminder that you can do everything right and still have relatives or others not esteem you. Mordecai saved a nation of people, helped rule an empire, championed rights for the Jews and yet some did not respect him.
In our lives, we will experience those who do not like us. However, if we live trying to gain their approval, we are not living for the approval of God.
Galatians 1:10
Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.
We cannot serve the Lord and please people at the same time. Not everyone is going to like us along the way, but that is not the goal for our lives. To make an eternal impact, we must do what is right, which is accepted by some and not by others. We must choose to live for God alone.
by Shannon Tillman | May 8, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
I cannot follow instructions. When there is an item that needs to be assembled, I stare blankly at the directions. I had my nine-year-old niece put together a baby basinet because I could not figure it out. I knew the baby would be safer with her assembly than mine. We did not tell her mother about it for years!
I need directions simplified. Jesus makes life easy. Every decision, every action, every word choice, every relationship can be evaluated by two simple commands. These instructions were originally given in the Old Testament. Jesus takes them to summarize how to evaluate every aspect of our lives.
Mark 12:28b-31
…“Of all the commandments, which is the most important?” “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”
Love God and love others. It is all about Him and them. Think through decisions, behaviors, choices, words, time, money, relationships. Put them in the context of loving God and loving others. Are we obeying the commands of love? If not, what changes need to be made so that we are following these instructions? If we are violating the commands of love, then we need to confess this sin, repent, and choose to do whatever it takes to obey the directive of love.
I do want to make a note that love is hinged with truth. Sometimes, we separate the two and treat love as an all encompassing “free pass” for others to harm us. Love has boundaries. God loved the nation of Israel, yet He left them to the consequences of their sin by allowing nations to oppress them and even take them into captivity. Love is not about rescuing those who do not want to be rescued, or incurring mistreatment from those who refuse to change.
That is why we are to love our neighbor as ourselves. We need to recognize our value and show concern for our own well-being. To be emotionally whole leads us to love others effectively. From the love we have for ourselves, which is rooted in the love God has for us, we can then love others. Maybe the first question for some of us should be, “Do I love myself?” If we are struggling with that love, then it is time to ask the Father to show us how to love ourselves, so we can truly love others.
I challenge all of us today to evaluate these two commands (by the way, they are not suggestions). “Do I love God? Do I love others as myself? Where am I violating these commands of love?” As God reveals to us areas that must change; may our love for God, love for others, and love for ourselves compel us to do whatever it takes to be transformed into a life of love. Jesus gave simple directions: Love God and love others as yourself. May each of us follow those instructions today to build a community of love.
by Kevin Tillman | May 1, 2025 | Thoughts
“I never saw a useful Christian who was not a student of the Bible.”
Dwight L. Moody
How’s that for a strong quote to start off? Convicting to many I’m sure. In this short quote by Moody two words in particular stuck out to me.
The first word was “useful”. Can someone be a Christian without a healthy intake of the Bible? Yes. Are they “useful” to the Kingdom? According to Moody, he hasn’t met one.
The second word was “student”. Being a student implies more than a casual reader. In a day where we can see a Bible verse on a meme in our social media feeds, we can “read” the Bible quite a bit. Verses are everywhere from social media to billboards. But, are these casual glances enough to be a “student”? I think we know the answer. I’m definitely not against scripture being posted on social media feeds, but it’s just simply not enough. Several reasons come to mind. First, a one verse meme can easily be misinterpreted. A false teaching can arise out of a verse taken out of context. Second, without studying the Bible in it’s totality, the bigger picture can be missed. Third, and maybe most importantly, we aren’t allowing God to speak to us through His Word.
Can God speak through just one verse here and there? Of course He can, but that’s not the point. The point is He has given us His Word. He has literally given us answers. He has given us His voice. It’s in our hands. Now we have to be “students” to be “useful”.
Imagine that you have a relative that passed away. Think back on someone that you were close to. In my case I think back to my grandfather that passed away in 2002. He was rough around the edges in so many ways, but he taught me so much. He had a strong work ethic. He grew up poor. He had polio his entire life. But, he never quit. He was tough. He also took me on many adventures as a kid growing up. I saw things and traveled with my grandfather. To this day, much of who I am was shaped by his influence. But now, imagine that I find a book that has a cover that reads “To Kevin, Instructions for Living”. Inside of this book is a collection of stories, truths, laws, parables, prophecies, etc. It’s all written directly to me from him. Would I read it? You bet I would. Would you read a book like that? I know you would.
I’m sure you see the point. That’s the Bible. It’s God’s direct Word to us. Not only that, but there is a promise that God’s Spirit will help us interpret it. It’s not just words on a page, it’s life giving to us.
Without geeking out on specific polling data here are some conclusions drawn by pollsters:
- Most Americans believe the Bible has been the most influential book in history (this even includes younger people polled).
- A majority believe the Bible contains everything someone needs to know in life.
But, that’s where the positive stats end. Pollsters go on to find that many don’t trust the Bible as completely true. They view it as “just another religious book”.
This I believe is key. It starts with our foundational belief in the Bible. If we believe it is truly the inspired Word of God that He has given directly to us, then it should promote our reading. If though, it’s just a “good book” full of some “good application points”, then it’s just another book on the shelf with other self-help books.
Another blog for another day is the defense of the Bible as being the authentic Word of God. Proving the Bible is indeed God’s Word to us is actually not as complicated as one might think. It’s truly too much for this blog post, but here are some bullet points:
- It’s been proven by historical accuracy and archeological digs.
- It’s thematically unified despite being written by approximately 40 different people, across three continents, over roughly 2,000 years. These people were from all different walks of life (scholars to shepherds).
- It made bold future prophetic predictions that were fulfilled with 100% accuracy. By the way there’s still somewhere around 25% of prophecies to be fulfilled. We literally have a future-telling book in our possession.
The Bible isn’t just another book, it is THE BOOK. God does amazing things in the lives of those that bury themselves in it.
Here’s the encouragement from this blog: Become a “student” of the Bible today. Commit to more than just a casual read. The Bible is the greatest book of all time for a reason. It is the one and only book written by God Himself. It’s stood the test of time, and still continues to change lives today. Put it to the test. Pick it up, give it a try, and watch what God will do.
by Shannon Tillman | Apr 24, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
I was terrified when I stood in front of the crowd. It was my first speaking engagement as a volunteer with Voice of the Martyrs, an organization that supports the persecuted church around the world. The subject matter was not only heavy, but the crowd made me extremely nervous. I was staring at over two hundred second graders! Children will let you know if they like your teaching or not. My microphone was shaking violently in my hand. My palms started having a strange itching sensation. How did I get here?
It began months earlier when I read a Voice of the Martyrs magazine. There was a call for volunteers to speak at different places to raise awareness of the persecuted church. The western church is often oblivious to the plights of our brothers and sisters in Christ around the world. More people have died for their faith in the last one hundred years than all of the last two thousand years combined! Immediately, I knew God wanted me to volunteer. Every part of my soul cried out “no”. The thought of speaking in front of others, especially on such a painful subject, seemed impossible. Yet, how could I say “no” when my brothers and sisters in Christ were willing to obey God even if the decision cost them pain, imprisonment, torture, and even death. I gave a reluctant “yes” and submitted my paper work and went through the training.
I think of this testimony as I read about the women who went to the tomb after the death of Jesus. They, too, had to obey even while afraid. After the nightmare of seeing Jesus crucified a few days before, they sorrowfully went to the tomb after the Sabbath. When they arrived, they found the stone had been rolled away from the grave. An angel told them what had happened.
Matthew 28:5-8
The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples.
They were afraid, yet they obeyed the angel’s directions to go to the disciples and tell them the glorious news. Obedience is not always done with confidence. Obedience can be done afraid. We must not believe the lie that we should “feel like” it before obeying. When we receive a directive from the Lord, we must do as we are told. Our emotions should not dictate or delay our actions.
The women were afraid in their obedience, but also filled with joy. Their fear was mixed with excitement of the news. God sent an angel to talk to them and tell them about the resurrection of Jesus! The Lord so desired for them to know what had happened with Jesus and to know what to do next, that He sent a heavenly messenger to earth to intersect with their lives.
By the way, we have more than what the women did. The women had an angel give them the news. Now, we have the Holy Spirit of the living God dwelling within us! When He gives us direction, even when it seems difficult or frightening, we can have the joy of knowing that God is leading us, God is with us, and God will help us in whatever He calls us to do. Even in the fear, there is the joy of obedience and the joy of His presence. When we obey, even if we are afraid, we receive a greater revelation of Jesus.
Matthew 28:9
Suddenly Jesus met them. “Greetings,” he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him.
Jesus showed up on the path the women were taking. The women saw the resurrected Lord! If the women had disobeyed and gone in a different direction, they would have missed meeting with Jesus. Obedience leads to encountering Jesus in new and unexpected ways.
Matthew 28:10a
Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid…
The women were still afraid. Even in obedience, even in worship, we can still be afraid in the midst of our circumstances. Jesus gently repeated the words that the angel had spoken to them earlier, “Do not be afraid”. However, this time Jesus changed the words of the angel. The angel had told the women:
Matthew 28:7a
Then go quickly and tell his DISCIPLES: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ (emphasis mine)
But Jesus said:
Matthew 28:10b
“Go and tell my BROTHERS to go to Galilee; there they will see me.” (emphasis mine)
Jesus called them brothers, not disciples. A disciple is a student, a pupil, a learner. However, a brother is family. Jesus changed the definition of their relationship. Our obedience leads to a deepening of our understanding of the loving connection we have with Jesus.
Jesus affirmed the promise that they would see Him in Galilee. Once the women shared the news, the disciples had the choice whether they would obey even while afraid.
Matthew 28:16-17a
Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him…
Thankfully, the disciples, the ones Jesus called brothers, obeyed and went to Galilee. Jesus showed up just as He promised. When we obey, Jesus shows up for us as well.
Jesus showed up for me in front of a crowd of children. I began my presentation, one mixed with cultural games, missionary awareness, and explanations of the persecuted church on a level they could grasp. The week went wonderfully, even though I must admit that I almost threw up every day before speaking. The camp asked me back each year until I finally had to step away from volunteering with Voice of the Martyrs due to other commitments. I was broken-hearted to leave. What started as a shaky “yes” because I was so afraid, ended with a glorious testimony of God transforming a fear-filled gal to one who loved speaking in front of crowds of all sizes and ages. Obedience, even when afraid, leads us into our destiny. I encourage today, obey, even if you must obey afraid.
by Shannon Tillman | Apr 17, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
Have you known something and then realized you know nothing all at the same time? That is how I felt today when I read Psalm 22. I have studied this Psalm numerous times. However, I was struck anew by one verse, wondering about the purpose of its use of the word “worm”.
Psalm 22:6
But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by everyone, despised by the people.
This verse is in the midst one of the most detailed Messianic passages in the Old Testament. David, who wrote this song, graphically depicts the crucifixion of Jesus almost a thousand years before His death.
Psalm 22:14-16
Dogs surround me, a pack of villains encircles me; they pierce my hands and my feet. All my bones are on display; people stare and gloat over me. They divide my clothes among them and cast lots for my garment.
These painful words are fulfilled at the crucifixion of Jesus as described in the gospels.
Luke 23:32-35
Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with him to be executed. When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, “He saved others; let him save himself if he is God’s Messiah, the Chosen One.”
In the midst of the crucifixion description in Psalm 22, David described the feeling of the Messiah as being like a worm and not like a man. In general, the word picture would describe feeling insignificant or worthless. However, the Hebrew adds another layer to the description. The word that is used here depicts a specific type of worm. This worm was crushed in ancient times to produce a dye for thread and fabric. The color the crushed worm produced was crimson.
The word for “worm” as translated in Psalm 22:6 is transliterated as the Hebrew word “tola”. The word “tola” was used multiple times in the book of Exodus to describe the color “crimson”. This color of thread was used in forming pieces of the Tabernacle, which was the precursor to the temple that was built in Jerusalem. Crimson threads were woven into the tabernacle curtains. The High Priest himself wore a design interlaced with crimson on his outer garment. Crimson was also a part of the veil which separated the Most Holy Place, or the Holy of Holies, from the rest of the Tabernacle. It was here that the ark of the covenant was set. The High Priest was allowed to enter this space only one day a year. Worms had to be crushed to create the dye that would be woven into the holy tabernacle of God, the holy clothing of the High Priest, as well as the curtain of the Holy of Holies.
In the Old Testament, we also find that the color of crimson is used as a word picture to describe the sins of people.
Isaiah 1:18
“Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as CRIMSON, they shall be like wool.” (emphasis mine)
On the cross, Jesus became the crushed worm. His crimson blood spilt out. This blood became the covering for our sin. The tabernacle, as constructed by Moses, was covered by curtains that had scarlet thread, which would be a picture of the blood of Jesus. His blood is our covering. We are made clean because He was crushed.
Isaiah 53:5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
The crushing of the worm led to beauty as a master craftsman made a crimson dye. The crushing of Jesus led to beauty as God crafted a way for us to be in relationship with Him through the blood of Jesus.
Colossians 1:21-22
Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—
Not only is Jesus our Savior, He also became our High Priest. Remember the crimson dye was also on the High Priest’s garments. This color on the holy clothing foreshadowed our ultimate High Priest being Jesus Himself.
Hebrews 4:14
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.
The High Priest would access the Most Holy Place by entering through the veil to access the ark, which was the mercy seat of God.
Exodus 26:33
Hang the curtain from the clasps and place the ark of the covenant law behind the curtain. The curtain will separate the Holy Place from the Most Holy Place.
This veil was hung in the temple in Jerusalem. The fabric’s measurements were sixty feet high, thirty feet wide, and four inches thick. This curtain is mentioned at the death of Jesus.
Matthew 27:50-51a
And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom.
The curtain was torn! We are no longer separated from God; we now have access to the Most Holy Place. We can be in relationship with the Lord, because Jesus died on our behalf. He became low so that we may be lifted up.
Psalm 22:6a
But I am a worm and not a man…
What seemed an insignificant, shameful time became the defining moment of all of history. The crucifixion of Jesus paved the way for people to obtain salvation from sins, relationship with God, and even experience eternal life as David proclaims in this psalm.
Psalm 22:26b
…those who seek the Lord will praise him— may your hearts live forever!
David ends his psalm celebrating the victory the “crushed worm” achieved for the generations.
Psalm 22:30-31
Posterity will serve him; future generations will be told about the Lord. They will proclaim his righteousness, declaring to a people yet unborn: He has done it!
Jesus, the crimson worm, became the Savior of the world! We proclaim what He has done today and His salvation message will be told forever. What the Old Testament foreshadowed; He fulfilled. Jesus was crushed so that we may be saved! He has done it! Halleluiah!
by Kevin Tillman | Apr 10, 2025 | Bible Study, Theology, Thoughts
It’s the single most important week in all of history. We call it Holy Week or Passion Week. It’s the last week of the life of Jesus. Approximately thirty percent of the gospel accounts are focused on this one week. The gospel of John dedicates over forty percent to this final week, including give chapters on just one night. It is obviously a very important week. Assuming the earth is about 6,000 years old, there have been approximately 312,000 weeks throughout history. This one week stands above them all. No other week in human history holds more weight.
This blog can be read in it’s entirety, or it could be broken up daily over the Holy Week. It’s a day-by-day guide of Jesus’s final week. It’s the Road to Resurrection!
Sunday
Palm Sunday was the point of no return. The palm branches line the pathway as the King enters. The palms are symbolic of victory. The victorious king is coming through. But, can you imagine the crowd when Jesus enters on a donkey? The mighty king, the victorious one is riding through town on the lowliest of animals. Jesus is coming in peace and humility. The intentional entering of Jerusalem on the donkey was a fulfillment of prophecy from Zechariah 9:9. The large crowds in town for the annual Passover were now openly proclaiming Jesus as their king (and not Caesar). The Pharisee leaders instruct Jesus to deny his claims as the messiah … but Jesus refuses. The Holy week begins with a resolute and determined Savior!
Monday
It’s Monday the day after Jesus’ triumphant entry into Jerusalem, and he wasted no time. Matthew 21:12-13 says: Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves. “It is written,” he said to them, ” ‘My house will be called a house of prayer,’ but you are making it ‘a den of robbers.’ ” Make no mistake Jesus was on a mission. First, he triumphs into Jerusalem proclaiming to be the Messiah. Now he is further sealing his own fate … actually, his destiny. He knew what he was doing as he continues boldly to the cross!
Tuesday
It’s Tuesday and the crowds have gathered at the temple to hear what Jesus had to say. Could he continue to match the fireworks of the past two days? On Sunday he boldly rides into Jerusalem proclaiming to be the King of Israel, the long awaited Messiah. On Monday he confronts the money-changers in the temple. On Tuesday he continues his boldness and resolve. He begins with three parables. All three are scathing rebukes of the religious leaders. He even goes so far as telling them, “…the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you.” The religious leaders are furious, the Roman officials are nervous, but the people are listening. Still trying to trick him, they ask Jesus about giving to Caesar. They believe there is no way he can answer the question without upsetting his followers, but Jesus cannot be tricked. Forget all preconceptions you may have of a meek, mild mannered Jesus. It’s Holy Week and our Savior is boldly walking to the cross and confronting the establishment on the way. It’s Tuesday and the final scene is being set!
Wednesday
It’s Wednesday and it’s the calm before the storm. Wednesday of the Holy Week is sometimes referred to as silent Wednesday. Jesus and the disciples were likely resting before the upcoming feasts. What we do know is the religious leaders had been silenced by Jesus on Tuesday. They even made the decision to not ask him any more questions (Matthew 22:46). On Wednesday the who’s who of religious leaders called a secret meeting at the home of Caiaphas (the high priest). Many scholars believe it was on this day that Judas agreed to the terms for selling out Jesus. The religious leaders were angry and conspiring, but little did they know that they were about to carry out God’s redemptive plan. It’s silent on Wednesday, but the storm clouds are gathering. The most important event in history is a mere two days away!
Thursday
It’s Thursday and not just a normal Thursday. This day is full of activity. The day might have started calmly, but things definitely got busy as the evening hours came. The first part of the day would have been final preparations for the Passover celebration that was to happen that night. This is something they had done every year with great celebration, reverence, and remembrance. Little did they know that this Passover would be different. A great deal is written on this one night. An evening celebration meal suddenly turned when Jesus proclaimed that one of those in the room would betray him. He then continued the Seder meal with the disciples, which included the traditional breaking of the bread and sharing of the cup. However, a new and deeper significance was being instituted by Jesus. This tradition that had been practiced for centuries on Passover was now taking on a new symbolism. After the dinner the disciples and Jesus journeyed to the Mount of Olives, and then went a short distance to the Garden of Gethsemane. Alone in the garden, while the disciples fell asleep, Jesus had a passionate prayer to His Father. One last time Jesus submits to His Father, “Not my will, but Yours be done”. An interesting side note is the meaning of “Gethsemane”, which means “oil press”. Located near the Mount of Olives, it was here that the olives were pressed to create olive oil. When olives are pressed they initially ooze out a blood red color before turning into the green color we are so familiar with. the olives have to be pressed with extreme pressure until the oil is forced out of their pores. Throughout history oil has been used to anoint royalty, prophets, or priests. Biblically we see it used as a healing agent. Jesus could have had this final agonizing prayer anywhere, but the place of choosing was right here at the “oil press”. The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! Judas does return and does betray Jesus. Jesus is arrested and sent before the Sanhedrin court immediately. They wanted this trial as quickly as possible, and they weren’t concerned about a fair trial. Jesus is alone in the basement prison cell at the home of Caiaphas. All of the disciples had scattered and hid in fear of their own lives. Peter followed from a distance to try and see where Jesus was taken, but even he denied Jesus that night a total of three times. A long day is coming to an end. What started with celebration has completely turned into a catastrophe. And now, the stage is set for the next day, the day that changed everything.
Prepare. Upper room. Wash. Cleanse. Feet. Passover. Meal. Share. Laughter. Celebration. Who is greatest? Betrayer departs. Love each other. Farewell. Helper is coming. One with Father. The Cornerstone. Vine. Branches. Body. Broken. Blood. Poured out. Bread. Wine. Remember me. Glorify me. Peter prediction. Garden. Sorrow. Darkest hour. Struggle. Watch. Prayer. Cup pass from me. Not my will. Your will. Asleep. Watch. Pray. Your will. Lonely. I will. The hour has come!
Friday
It’s Friday … it’s late at night. Jesus spent the previous evening with his disciples. He then goes to the garden to pray. In the darkness of night, a great crowd armed with swords led by Judas approach Jesus. Jesus is arrested, and from here escorted to a series of “trials”. While Jesus endures false testimony, physical abuse and ridicule, Peter had followed at a safe distance. While in the courtyard of Caiaphas’ palace, Peter three times denies he knows Jesus. As the rooster crows, he is reminded of Jesus’ prediction of this denial. When daylight comes Jesus is taken before Pontius Pilate, the governor of Judea. Though the Sanhedrin and Jewish leaders had already found Jesus guilty, a death penalty could not be delivered without approval by the Roman government. Pilate wanted nothing to do with Jesus. He didn’t care about the theological accusations from the Jewish leadership. He didn’t see a reason to convict Jesus. Looking for a way out, Pilate remembers the custom of releasing one prisoner during Passover. Pilate gives the people a choice between Jesus or Barabbas, a known violent criminal. Surely the people would choose Jesus. The people had a choice: release Jesus the Christ or Jesus Barabbas (yes his name was also Jesus). The name “Jesus” is from the Hebrew name Joshua, meaning “salvation”. “Barabbas” is a hellenized version of the Aramaic “bar abba”, or “son of the father”. So, the people had the choice of Jesus “son of the father” and Jesus “son of the FATHER”. They chose Barabbas, choosing this world over Jesus. The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! After the “trials” Jesus was beaten and tortured. Jesus is hung on the cross around the 3rd hour (about 9am). On the 6th hour (around noon) darkness covers the earth. This is the same time that lambs were traditionally slain for the Passover Sabbath dinner! The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! On the 9th hour (3pm) Jesus proclaims “It is Finished!”. An earthquake occurs, and the veil that separated the Most Holy Place was torn, a place that only the High Priest had entered once a year to make a sacrifice for the sins of the people. The veil is now torn, access is granted. The once-for-all sacrifice has been made. The world is dark, Jesus is dead.
Saturday
It’s Saturday … Jesus is dead. His closest followers are in hiding. The tomb is guarded. All hope is gone. They have followed him for three years now. They believed he truly was the long-awaited Messiah. They have seen him perform miracle after miracle. But now, it’s over. Hope has been crushed. Two thousand years later we ask how they could feel like that? Didn’t they listen? Where is their faith? Don’t they know what’s coming tomorrow? The truth is, we all live in “Saturdays”. This whole world, our whole life in some ways, is a “Saturday”. It’s the day that’s nestled between the miracles of the past, and the unknown of the future. It’s the silent day where nothing seems to be happening. It’s the day where hope seems like a distant memory. Not much is recorded in the Bible about this day. We know that guards were sent to the tomb. We assume Jesus’s followers were in hiding, because that is where they are Sunday morning. I guess this is much the same for us. Not much is recorded on the “Saturdays” of our lives. They are the hard days, the doubt-filled, hopeless days. “…Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.” (Psalm 30:5). So, it’s Saturday, what do we do? We wait … wait … wait …
Sunday
It’s Sunday … Jesus’ followers were devastated. I imagine them to be sleep deprived. Anyone that has ever lost a loved one knows the pain and challenge of grief. It has now been two sleepless nights, and their world has fallen apart. Sunday starts early. Several women, led by Mary Magdalene, desire to give Jesus’ body a proper anointing in keeping with Jewish customs. This traditionally would have been done before burial, but because of the start of the Sabbath at sundown on Friday, Jesus was buried quickly. So, the women make their way to the tomb with oil and spices in hand. Upon arriving, there are no guards, the large stone that sealed the entrance was moved, and then … the empty grave! Mary Magdalene was very upset and immediately rushed to tell Peter and John that the body of Jesus had been moved. The other women, however, remain at the tomb and are told by an angel that Jesus was alive! The women go to tell the men the good news, but their story is not first believed. The men consider the news initially to be “nonsense”. Mary Magdalene returns to the tomb, and this time encounters Jesus himself! It wasn’t until that evening that the disciples truly believed. They had dismissed the women’s testimony. Even Peter and John after going to the empty tomb simply “returned to where they were staying.” John tells us he saw the empty grave and “believed”, but then immediately confesses that neither he or Peter understood the prophecy of Jesus rising from the dead. But that night, it all changed! Ten of the disciples were hiding in a home in Jerusalem. They were scared, and they were tired. Then suddenly, Jesus enters the room! Sunday started hopeless, but now hope has entered the room … Hope, that is the message of Jesus … everything changes when hope enters. Jesus is my hope. Jesus is your hope. He is alive! He is alive! He is alive!
by Shannon Tillman | Apr 3, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
Neglect. Adultery. Manipulation. Murder. Cover-up.
David committed all of these sins as he neglected to go to war as a king should do. He then had an affair with Bathsheba since her husband was away on the battlefield. Upon discovery of her pregnancy, David called Uriah, her husband, home in an attempt to get him to sleep with his wife so the pregnancy could not be pinned on David. When that plan did not work, he had Uriah killed in battle. David took Bathsheba for his wife to wrap up the entire mess, so his baby was born in the palace.
2 Samuel 11:27b
But the thing David had done displeased the Lord.
The Lord sent Nathan, a prophet, to confront David on his actions. David had committed all of these sins about a year earlier, yet there had been no sign of repentance until the day Nathan rebuked him.
2 Samuel 12:9a
Why did you despise the word of the Lord by doing what is evil in his eyes?
It is in the midst of this conversation that David finally admitted that he had done wrong.
2 Samuel 12:13
Then David said to Nathan, “I have sinned against the Lord.”
This was not all that David did in his repentance. He wrote a song which is now recorded as Psalm 51. In the song, he laments his sin and asks restoration of his relationship with the Lord.
Psalm 51:1-2
Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.
David understood that he not only needed God’s mercy to forgive what he had done in the past, but he also needed help to live differently in the future.
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
David wrote an allegory to explain the emotional healing that takes place in confession. In his poetic discord, David gave a visual of what this healing is like.
Psalm 51:8
…let the bones which you have broken rejoice.
When a bone breaks, the bone marrow cells send a message for other cells to help the body heal. The result of these extra cells causes inflammation. Then, a substance known as callus surrounds the broken bone. Callus is a soft substance so the bone needs to be held in place during this stage of healing so no further damage occurs. That is why a broken bone is stabilized in a cast. Eventually, new cells come and form a new bone. The process takes weeks.
When do broken bones rejoice? When they are healed. If we do not go through the healing process, the “broken bones” of our lives will stay shattered instead of strengthened. The healing takes time. The healing involves steps. There is a process to be able to regain what was lost. It is not immediate, but it can come. God forgives in the moment, but restoration takes time. We want to be healed so as to be protected to not sin in the same way again.
What in your life is broken? What is not working? Do not ignore the signs but instead focus on healing in that area.
I have to do this in my own life often. The Lord shows me a sin area and takes me into root causes of that sin. Some of the issues are deep enough that I have enlisted counseling. No matter the sin issue, I always share my broken places with trusted friends for I know that vulnerability and accountability lead to transformation. We should value our healing so much that we are willing to do whatever it takes to be whole. Too many people are going through life with obvious “broken” areas which everyone else can see. However, nothing can be done to help the person until there is an acknowledgment that the “emotional bones” are hurt. Healing can be attained but only if one humbles himself to receive the help of God and others.
If we broke our arm, it would be foolish to not go to a doctor. Yet, we do not take our broken lives to our Heavenly Physician. Often, others in our lives attempt to point out areas for change, but we ignore them. By doing this, we only delay or even further damage the broken places, leading us to more sin and consequences. Sadly, this hurts not only ourselves but others in the process.
We must not delay any longer! It is time for the broken places in our hearts to be healed. Our Heavenly Physician and others help us in the process and let us know when it is time for the “cast” to come off so we can be reinstated into service. Then, our broken bones will rejoice! The joy will be evident in our lives and seen by others. We will then know we are truly whole!
(By the way, this blog stems from thoughts I wrote about myself in my journal in 2023. Now, God is dealing with me on a whole other set of broken areas in my life. He is such a good Doctor. I hope to become even more healed and whole this year! Let the broken bones rejoice!)
by Shannon Tillman | Mar 27, 2025 | Bible Study
I was so tired. A certain health issue combined with family stress had caused my body to crash. The idea of washing dishes seemed to be too overwhelming, much less accomplishing anything that really seemed to matter. The fatigue was not as discouraging as the thoughts of all the things I “should” be doing. Failure seemed to mock me on every side. I was definitely not doing “enough” based on some idea or expectation of what I assumed “enough” should look like.
God, in His gentle mercy, reminded me that I am not accountable to what I think I “should” do. Also, I am not accountable to the opinion of others or what they consider I “should” do. Instead, moment by moment I just need to be aware of the Lord. He will lead me in His time and in His way. On that difficult day, the Lord just called me to rest in His mercy, comfort, and strength.
When Jesus arrived on the scene, the Jewish community had their ideas of what the Messiah “should” do. He should rescue them from Rome, conquer all their enemies, reign from Jerusalem as their King, and usher in the Messianic era. Their expectations came from promises written in the Old Testament. One of these many Messianic prophesies could be found in the book of Isaiah.
Isaiah 61:2
“to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God…”
The Messiah will declare favor over His people and vengeance over the enemy. The Israelites were waiting for this promised victory and believed the time had come for its fulfillment. Jesus had other news for them.
Luke 4:16-20a
He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. He stood up to read, and the scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written: “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to set the oppressed free, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down.
“Wait a minute, Jesus. You only said the first part of the promise from Isaiah. We want to see vengeance on the enemy. We want to see Rome conquered and an earthly kingdom set up. Why did you stop halfway and not complete this section of scriptures?”
Jesus knew what God had called Him to do in that season of life. He knew that in His first coming, this was what He would accomplish, nothing more, nothing less. The people’s expectation of what Messiah “should” do was not going to influence what the Lord had already determined to happen. Jesus did not put more expectations on Himself or cave to the expectations of others. He simply stayed with the mission.
Luke 4:20b-21
The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him. He began by saying to them, “Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”
Jesus models the timing of ministry. He knew what He was to accomplish at that time and He knows what He will do in the future. Jesus will return to earth and will reign as King. He will conquer every enemy. However, that was not the purpose of His first coming. There was a gap of time in between that was not understood by the people. Jesus was not living according to their ideas; He was following God’s will. Thus, He was faithfully completing the part of the plan He was called to at that time.
By the way, Jesus knew the people would not like the fact that He was not going to meet their expectations.
Luke 4:24-27
And He said, “Truly I say to you, no prophet is welcome in his hometown. But I say to you in truth, there were many widows in Israel in the days of Elijah, when the sky was shut up for three years and six months, when a great famine came over all the land; and yet Elijah was sent to none of them, but only to Zarephath, in the land of Sidon, to a woman who was a widow. And there were many lepers in Israel in the time of Elisha the prophet; and none of them was cleansed, but only Naaman the Syrian.”
Jesus was letting them know that even the Old Testament gave accounts where the Gentiles (non-Jews) received from the Lord while the Jewish people did not. God’s intention for salvation encompassed all people, not just the Jews. Jesus knew His death on the cross would provide access to the Father for everyone who chooses to believe. Since this was not an expectation they had of the Messiah, the people were enraged at Jesus.
Luke 4:28-29
And all the people in the synagogue were filled with rage as they heard these things; and they got up and drove Him out of the city, and led Him to the brow of the hill on which their city had been built, in order to throw Him down the cliff.
They attempted to kill Jesus! This is His hometown of Nazareth so the crowd would have included some family and friends. (When I was struggling with my family, Jesus reminded me that although my situation was hard and painful, cruel and mean, at least my family did not try to throw me over a cliff like His did!) Their hostility did not change the mission Jesus was on.
Luke 4:30
But passing through their midst, He went His way.
Jesus knew it was not time for Him to die. He was to proclaim good news, freedom, and God’s favor. He would continue to do what God had told Him to do until He would faithfully accomplish another set of prophesies from Isaiah:
Isaiah 53:5
But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; The chastening for our well-being fell upon Him, And by His scourging we are healed.
One day, Jesus will return and fulfill the rest of the Messianic promises in Scripture. He will rescue His people, vanquish the enemy, and reign from Jerusalem. Until that day, we are to be faithful to the Lord and not be weighed down by all we think we “should” do or by the expectations of others. God will tell us His plan for us and guide our steps so we can fulfill the purpose He has for us in this season of life.
by Kevin Tillman | Mar 20, 2025 | Thoughts
One of my favorite authors A.W. Tozer says it this way…
“What we think about when we are free to think about what we will – that is what we are or will soon become.”
A.W. Tozer
King Solomon, who was considered to be the wisest man ever said it like this,
Proverbs 23:7
For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.
The power of our thinking should never be underestimated. Secular authors have made millions of dollars on the concept of positive thinking. Go into any bookstore (if you can find one) and check the self-help section. They are going to be primarily focused on your thinking. The thoughts there are if you want to be rich, think rich. If you want to be healthy, think healthy. If you want to be successful, think successful.
These concepts are actually not unbiblical. As Tozer said in the quote above, “what we think about when we are free to think … that is what we are or will become.”
Put simply, you want to change your life, then change your thinking. It’s simple to state, but a little harder to put into practice. Our minds are finicky. They play tricks on us.
Jesus gave us this same principle in the gospels …
Luke 6:45
A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from what is in your heart.
In the Bible “heart” is typically a reference to one’s entire being including thoughts and emotions. Jesus basically says here that you live out what you are on the inside. The words (and actions) that we put forth are a result of who we really are.
The apostle Paul instructs us this way …
Philippians 4:8
Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
By now, I think it’s clear. Change your thinking and you will change your life. We know this is a truth. Though it’s a Biblical concept, even a non-believer knows this to be true. Our thoughts are the epicenter of who we are. If we can control them, and change them, we will become what we think. If we don’t change them, we are what we think.
So, here’s some basic steps to start changing your thinking today …
- Read your Bible and pray. – this might be Christianity 101 stuff, but it’s the most basic truth we need to remember. The Bible has the thoughts we need. Beyond that, the Bible is the only book you will ever read that is “alive”. The words are not just a series of black and red letters. They are life-giving words that can speak directly to our soul. Prayer is also intertwined in this process. Prayer isn’t just a “bow your head” think. It’s a constant communication with God.
- Prioritize – do the things that are most important first. If you want to be healthy, don’t wait until the end of the day when you won’t do it. Do it first. Want to learn a new skill? Do it first. Prioritize. I would also add spending time with your loved ones in this category. Don’t give your biggest supporters your leftovers. Spend time FIRST with them. Prioritize family.
- Know Your Triggers – this is a big one. We are all triggered by certain things. If you’re on a diet, don’t go to the bakery. If you’re trying to stay sober, don’t go to the bar with friends. Sometimes the triggers are people. If you know someone is a trigger for you, avoid them. If that’s impossible, such as a work environment, work at controlling the time with them. Knowing your trigger can prevent a mind spiral downward.
- Flip the Script – when little negative words pop in your head turn it around immediately. When you hear “you can’t do this, you’ve tried before”, change it to “I’m determined to stay the course”. Go a step further and have someone help you with accountability.
- Discipline – this is one we don’t like to talk about, but at times is needed. Sometimes you just “don’t feel like it”. Your thinking is way off and you are doing your best to wiggle your mind out of whatever it is. Good old-fashioned will power is sometimes needed. This can’t be the only method, because it will fall short at some point. But, on occasion discipline can get us through. The end result is that at some point our thinking changes and the will power isn’t needed (or at least needed minimally).
- Return to What Worked – this is super practical. Go back to something that’s worked in the past. Maybe a certain song motivates you. Maybe there’s a special place that calms you down. Whatever it is, go back to that. Our minds are so powerful and they are triggered so easily.
- Beware of the Interference – it’s happened to all of us. You’re having a good day. Your thoughts are good. You’re getting stuff done. Then, whamo out of nowhere something challenges that. Sometimes these are unavoidable circumstances that happen in life. We can’t really do anything about those. But, I’m talking about people that try and hijack your thoughts. No one has a right to hijack your thoughts. You and only you control what you are thinking.
- Slow Down – take time to think. Not pretend thinking, real thinking. This is time to reflect. Turn off all of the noise and calm down.
From his business book “Change Your Thinking, Change Your Life” Brian Tracy says ….
Any thought or action that you repeat over and over will eventually become a new habit.
Brian Tracy
You want to change your life? Start with your thinking. Today is the day.
