by Shannon Tillman | Apr 24, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
I was terrified when I stood in front of the crowd. It was my first speaking engagement as a volunteer with Voice of the Martyrs, an organization that supports the persecuted church around the world. The subject matter was not only heavy, but the crowd made me extremely nervous. I was staring at over two hundred second graders! Children will let you know if they like your teaching or not. My microphone was shaking violently in my hand. My palms started having a strange itching sensation. How did I get here?
It began months earlier when I read a Voice of the Martyrs magazine. There was a call for volunteers to speak at different places to raise awareness of the persecuted church. The western church is often oblivious to the plights of our brothers and sisters in Christ around the world. More people have died for their faith in the last one hundred years than all of the last two thousand years combined! Immediately, I knew God wanted me to volunteer. Every part of my soul cried out “no”. The thought of speaking in front of others, especially on such a painful subject, seemed impossible. Yet, how could I say “no” when my brothers and sisters in Christ were willing to obey God even if the decision cost them pain, imprisonment, torture, and even death. I gave a reluctant “yes” and submitted my paper work and went through the training.
I think of this testimony as I read about the women who went to the tomb after the death of Jesus. They, too, had to obey even while afraid. After the nightmare of seeing Jesus crucified a few days before, they sorrowfully went to the tomb after the Sabbath. When they arrived, they found the stone had been rolled away from the grave. An angel told them what had happened.
Matthew 28:5-8
The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples.
They were afraid, yet they obeyed the angel’s directions to go to the disciples and tell them the glorious news. Obedience is not always done with confidence. Obedience can be done afraid. We must not believe the lie that we should “feel like” it before obeying. When we receive a directive from the Lord, we must do as we are told. Our emotions should not dictate or delay our actions.
The women were afraid in their obedience, but also filled with joy. Their fear was mixed with excitement of the news. God sent an angel to talk to them and tell them about the resurrection of Jesus! The Lord so desired for them to know what had happened with Jesus and to know what to do next, that He sent a heavenly messenger to earth to intersect with their lives.
By the way, we have more than what the women did. The women had an angel give them the news. Now, we have the Holy Spirit of the living God dwelling within us! When He gives us direction, even when it seems difficult or frightening, we can have the joy of knowing that God is leading us, God is with us, and God will help us in whatever He calls us to do. Even in the fear, there is the joy of obedience and the joy of His presence. When we obey, even if we are afraid, we receive a greater revelation of Jesus.
Matthew 28:9
Suddenly Jesus met them. “Greetings,” he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him.
Jesus showed up on the path the women were taking. The women saw the resurrected Lord! If the women had disobeyed and gone in a different direction, they would have missed meeting with Jesus. Obedience leads to encountering Jesus in new and unexpected ways.
Matthew 28:10a
Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid…
The women were still afraid. Even in obedience, even in worship, we can still be afraid in the midst of our circumstances. Jesus gently repeated the words that the angel had spoken to them earlier, “Do not be afraid”. However, this time Jesus changed the words of the angel. The angel had told the women:
Matthew 28:7a
Then go quickly and tell his DISCIPLES: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ (emphasis mine)
But Jesus said:
Matthew 28:10b
“Go and tell my BROTHERS to go to Galilee; there they will see me.” (emphasis mine)
Jesus called them brothers, not disciples. A disciple is a student, a pupil, a learner. However, a brother is family. Jesus changed the definition of their relationship. Our obedience leads to a deepening of our understanding of the loving connection we have with Jesus.
Jesus affirmed the promise that they would see Him in Galilee. Once the women shared the news, the disciples had the choice whether they would obey even while afraid.
Matthew 28:16-17a
Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him…
Thankfully, the disciples, the ones Jesus called brothers, obeyed and went to Galilee. Jesus showed up just as He promised. When we obey, Jesus shows up for us as well.
Jesus showed up for me in front of a crowd of children. I began my presentation, one mixed with cultural games, missionary awareness, and explanations of the persecuted church on a level they could grasp. The week went wonderfully, even though I must admit that I almost threw up every day before speaking. The camp asked me back each year until I finally had to step away from volunteering with Voice of the Martyrs due to other commitments. I was broken-hearted to leave. What started as a shaky “yes” because I was so afraid, ended with a glorious testimony of God transforming a fear-filled gal to one who loved speaking in front of crowds of all sizes and ages. Obedience, even when afraid, leads us into our destiny. I encourage today, obey, even if you must obey afraid.
by Shannon Tillman | Apr 17, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
Have you known something and then realized you know nothing all at the same time? That is how I felt today when I read Psalm 22. I have studied this Psalm numerous times. However, I was struck anew by one verse, wondering about the purpose of its use of the word “worm”.
Psalm 22:6
But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by everyone, despised by the people.
This verse is in the midst one of the most detailed Messianic passages in the Old Testament. David, who wrote this song, graphically depicts the crucifixion of Jesus almost a thousand years before His death.
Psalm 22:14-16
Dogs surround me, a pack of villains encircles me; they pierce my hands and my feet. All my bones are on display; people stare and gloat over me. They divide my clothes among them and cast lots for my garment.
These painful words are fulfilled at the crucifixion of Jesus as described in the gospels.
Luke 23:32-35
Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with him to be executed. When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, “He saved others; let him save himself if he is God’s Messiah, the Chosen One.”
In the midst of the crucifixion description in Psalm 22, David described the feeling of the Messiah as being like a worm and not like a man. In general, the word picture would describe feeling insignificant or worthless. However, the Hebrew adds another layer to the description. The word that is used here depicts a specific type of worm. This worm was crushed in ancient times to produce a dye for thread and fabric. The color the crushed worm produced was crimson.
The word for “worm” as translated in Psalm 22:6 is transliterated as the Hebrew word “tola”. The word “tola” was used multiple times in the book of Exodus to describe the color “crimson”. This color of thread was used in forming pieces of the Tabernacle, which was the precursor to the temple that was built in Jerusalem. Crimson threads were woven into the tabernacle curtains. The High Priest himself wore a design interlaced with crimson on his outer garment. Crimson was also a part of the veil which separated the Most Holy Place, or the Holy of Holies, from the rest of the Tabernacle. It was here that the ark of the covenant was set. The High Priest was allowed to enter this space only one day a year. Worms had to be crushed to create the dye that would be woven into the holy tabernacle of God, the holy clothing of the High Priest, as well as the curtain of the Holy of Holies.
In the Old Testament, we also find that the color of crimson is used as a word picture to describe the sins of people.
Isaiah 1:18
“Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as CRIMSON, they shall be like wool.” (emphasis mine)
On the cross, Jesus became the crushed worm. His crimson blood spilt out. This blood became the covering for our sin. The tabernacle, as constructed by Moses, was covered by curtains that had scarlet thread, which would be a picture of the blood of Jesus. His blood is our covering. We are made clean because He was crushed.
Isaiah 53:5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
The crushing of the worm led to beauty as a master craftsman made a crimson dye. The crushing of Jesus led to beauty as God crafted a way for us to be in relationship with Him through the blood of Jesus.
Colossians 1:21-22
Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—
Not only is Jesus our Savior, He also became our High Priest. Remember the crimson dye was also on the High Priest’s garments. This color on the holy clothing foreshadowed our ultimate High Priest being Jesus Himself.
Hebrews 4:14
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.
The High Priest would access the Most Holy Place by entering through the veil to access the ark, which was the mercy seat of God.
Exodus 26:33
Hang the curtain from the clasps and place the ark of the covenant law behind the curtain. The curtain will separate the Holy Place from the Most Holy Place.
This veil was hung in the temple in Jerusalem. The fabric’s measurements were sixty feet high, thirty feet wide, and four inches thick. This curtain is mentioned at the death of Jesus.
Matthew 27:50-51a
And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom.
The curtain was torn! We are no longer separated from God; we now have access to the Most Holy Place. We can be in relationship with the Lord, because Jesus died on our behalf. He became low so that we may be lifted up.
Psalm 22:6a
But I am a worm and not a man…
What seemed an insignificant, shameful time became the defining moment of all of history. The crucifixion of Jesus paved the way for people to obtain salvation from sins, relationship with God, and even experience eternal life as David proclaims in this psalm.
Psalm 22:26b
…those who seek the Lord will praise him— may your hearts live forever!
David ends his psalm celebrating the victory the “crushed worm” achieved for the generations.
Psalm 22:30-31
Posterity will serve him; future generations will be told about the Lord. They will proclaim his righteousness, declaring to a people yet unborn: He has done it!
Jesus, the crimson worm, became the Savior of the world! We proclaim what He has done today and His salvation message will be told forever. What the Old Testament foreshadowed; He fulfilled. Jesus was crushed so that we may be saved! He has done it! Halleluiah!
by Kevin Tillman | Apr 10, 2025 | Bible Study, Theology, Thoughts
It’s the single most important week in all of history. We call it Holy Week or Passion Week. It’s the last week of the life of Jesus. Approximately thirty percent of the gospel accounts are focused on this one week. The gospel of John dedicates over forty percent to this final week, including give chapters on just one night. It is obviously a very important week. Assuming the earth is about 6,000 years old, there have been approximately 312,000 weeks throughout history. This one week stands above them all. No other week in human history holds more weight.
This blog can be read in it’s entirety, or it could be broken up daily over the Holy Week. It’s a day-by-day guide of Jesus’s final week. It’s the Road to Resurrection!
Sunday
Palm Sunday was the point of no return. The palm branches line the pathway as the King enters. The palms are symbolic of victory. The victorious king is coming through. But, can you imagine the crowd when Jesus enters on a donkey? The mighty king, the victorious one is riding through town on the lowliest of animals. Jesus is coming in peace and humility. The intentional entering of Jerusalem on the donkey was a fulfillment of prophecy from Zechariah 9:9. The large crowds in town for the annual Passover were now openly proclaiming Jesus as their king (and not Caesar). The Pharisee leaders instruct Jesus to deny his claims as the messiah … but Jesus refuses. The Holy week begins with a resolute and determined Savior!
Monday
It’s Monday the day after Jesus’ triumphant entry into Jerusalem, and he wasted no time. Matthew 21:12-13 says: Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves. “It is written,” he said to them, ” ‘My house will be called a house of prayer,’ but you are making it ‘a den of robbers.’ ” Make no mistake Jesus was on a mission. First, he triumphs into Jerusalem proclaiming to be the Messiah. Now he is further sealing his own fate … actually, his destiny. He knew what he was doing as he continues boldly to the cross!
Tuesday
It’s Tuesday and the crowds have gathered at the temple to hear what Jesus had to say. Could he continue to match the fireworks of the past two days? On Sunday he boldly rides into Jerusalem proclaiming to be the King of Israel, the long awaited Messiah. On Monday he confronts the money-changers in the temple. On Tuesday he continues his boldness and resolve. He begins with three parables. All three are scathing rebukes of the religious leaders. He even goes so far as telling them, “…the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you.” The religious leaders are furious, the Roman officials are nervous, but the people are listening. Still trying to trick him, they ask Jesus about giving to Caesar. They believe there is no way he can answer the question without upsetting his followers, but Jesus cannot be tricked. Forget all preconceptions you may have of a meek, mild mannered Jesus. It’s Holy Week and our Savior is boldly walking to the cross and confronting the establishment on the way. It’s Tuesday and the final scene is being set!
Wednesday
It’s Wednesday and it’s the calm before the storm. Wednesday of the Holy Week is sometimes referred to as silent Wednesday. Jesus and the disciples were likely resting before the upcoming feasts. What we do know is the religious leaders had been silenced by Jesus on Tuesday. They even made the decision to not ask him any more questions (Matthew 22:46). On Wednesday the who’s who of religious leaders called a secret meeting at the home of Caiaphas (the high priest). Many scholars believe it was on this day that Judas agreed to the terms for selling out Jesus. The religious leaders were angry and conspiring, but little did they know that they were about to carry out God’s redemptive plan. It’s silent on Wednesday, but the storm clouds are gathering. The most important event in history is a mere two days away!
Thursday
It’s Thursday and not just a normal Thursday. This day is full of activity. The day might have started calmly, but things definitely got busy as the evening hours came. The first part of the day would have been final preparations for the Passover celebration that was to happen that night. This is something they had done every year with great celebration, reverence, and remembrance. Little did they know that this Passover would be different. A great deal is written on this one night. An evening celebration meal suddenly turned when Jesus proclaimed that one of those in the room would betray him. He then continued the Seder meal with the disciples, which included the traditional breaking of the bread and sharing of the cup. However, a new and deeper significance was being instituted by Jesus. This tradition that had been practiced for centuries on Passover was now taking on a new symbolism. After the dinner the disciples and Jesus journeyed to the Mount of Olives, and then went a short distance to the Garden of Gethsemane. Alone in the garden, while the disciples fell asleep, Jesus had a passionate prayer to His Father. One last time Jesus submits to His Father, “Not my will, but Yours be done”. An interesting side note is the meaning of “Gethsemane”, which means “oil press”. Located near the Mount of Olives, it was here that the olives were pressed to create olive oil. When olives are pressed they initially ooze out a blood red color before turning into the green color we are so familiar with. the olives have to be pressed with extreme pressure until the oil is forced out of their pores. Throughout history oil has been used to anoint royalty, prophets, or priests. Biblically we see it used as a healing agent. Jesus could have had this final agonizing prayer anywhere, but the place of choosing was right here at the “oil press”. The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! Judas does return and does betray Jesus. Jesus is arrested and sent before the Sanhedrin court immediately. They wanted this trial as quickly as possible, and they weren’t concerned about a fair trial. Jesus is alone in the basement prison cell at the home of Caiaphas. All of the disciples had scattered and hid in fear of their own lives. Peter followed from a distance to try and see where Jesus was taken, but even he denied Jesus that night a total of three times. A long day is coming to an end. What started with celebration has completely turned into a catastrophe. And now, the stage is set for the next day, the day that changed everything.
Prepare. Upper room. Wash. Cleanse. Feet. Passover. Meal. Share. Laughter. Celebration. Who is greatest? Betrayer departs. Love each other. Farewell. Helper is coming. One with Father. The Cornerstone. Vine. Branches. Body. Broken. Blood. Poured out. Bread. Wine. Remember me. Glorify me. Peter prediction. Garden. Sorrow. Darkest hour. Struggle. Watch. Prayer. Cup pass from me. Not my will. Your will. Asleep. Watch. Pray. Your will. Lonely. I will. The hour has come!
Friday
It’s Friday … it’s late at night. Jesus spent the previous evening with his disciples. He then goes to the garden to pray. In the darkness of night, a great crowd armed with swords led by Judas approach Jesus. Jesus is arrested, and from here escorted to a series of “trials”. While Jesus endures false testimony, physical abuse and ridicule, Peter had followed at a safe distance. While in the courtyard of Caiaphas’ palace, Peter three times denies he knows Jesus. As the rooster crows, he is reminded of Jesus’ prediction of this denial. When daylight comes Jesus is taken before Pontius Pilate, the governor of Judea. Though the Sanhedrin and Jewish leaders had already found Jesus guilty, a death penalty could not be delivered without approval by the Roman government. Pilate wanted nothing to do with Jesus. He didn’t care about the theological accusations from the Jewish leadership. He didn’t see a reason to convict Jesus. Looking for a way out, Pilate remembers the custom of releasing one prisoner during Passover. Pilate gives the people a choice between Jesus or Barabbas, a known violent criminal. Surely the people would choose Jesus. The people had a choice: release Jesus the Christ or Jesus Barabbas (yes his name was also Jesus). The name “Jesus” is from the Hebrew name Joshua, meaning “salvation”. “Barabbas” is a hellenized version of the Aramaic “bar abba”, or “son of the father”. So, the people had the choice of Jesus “son of the father” and Jesus “son of the FATHER”. They chose Barabbas, choosing this world over Jesus. The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! After the “trials” Jesus was beaten and tortured. Jesus is hung on the cross around the 3rd hour (about 9am). On the 6th hour (around noon) darkness covers the earth. This is the same time that lambs were traditionally slain for the Passover Sabbath dinner! The Bible doesn’t make mistakes! On the 9th hour (3pm) Jesus proclaims “It is Finished!”. An earthquake occurs, and the veil that separated the Most Holy Place was torn, a place that only the High Priest had entered once a year to make a sacrifice for the sins of the people. The veil is now torn, access is granted. The once-for-all sacrifice has been made. The world is dark, Jesus is dead.
Saturday
It’s Saturday … Jesus is dead. His closest followers are in hiding. The tomb is guarded. All hope is gone. They have followed him for three years now. They believed he truly was the long-awaited Messiah. They have seen him perform miracle after miracle. But now, it’s over. Hope has been crushed. Two thousand years later we ask how they could feel like that? Didn’t they listen? Where is their faith? Don’t they know what’s coming tomorrow? The truth is, we all live in “Saturdays”. This whole world, our whole life in some ways, is a “Saturday”. It’s the day that’s nestled between the miracles of the past, and the unknown of the future. It’s the silent day where nothing seems to be happening. It’s the day where hope seems like a distant memory. Not much is recorded in the Bible about this day. We know that guards were sent to the tomb. We assume Jesus’s followers were in hiding, because that is where they are Sunday morning. I guess this is much the same for us. Not much is recorded on the “Saturdays” of our lives. They are the hard days, the doubt-filled, hopeless days. “…Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.” (Psalm 30:5). So, it’s Saturday, what do we do? We wait … wait … wait …
Sunday
It’s Sunday … Jesus’ followers were devastated. I imagine them to be sleep deprived. Anyone that has ever lost a loved one knows the pain and challenge of grief. It has now been two sleepless nights, and their world has fallen apart. Sunday starts early. Several women, led by Mary Magdalene, desire to give Jesus’ body a proper anointing in keeping with Jewish customs. This traditionally would have been done before burial, but because of the start of the Sabbath at sundown on Friday, Jesus was buried quickly. So, the women make their way to the tomb with oil and spices in hand. Upon arriving, there are no guards, the large stone that sealed the entrance was moved, and then … the empty grave! Mary Magdalene was very upset and immediately rushed to tell Peter and John that the body of Jesus had been moved. The other women, however, remain at the tomb and are told by an angel that Jesus was alive! The women go to tell the men the good news, but their story is not first believed. The men consider the news initially to be “nonsense”. Mary Magdalene returns to the tomb, and this time encounters Jesus himself! It wasn’t until that evening that the disciples truly believed. They had dismissed the women’s testimony. Even Peter and John after going to the empty tomb simply “returned to where they were staying.” John tells us he saw the empty grave and “believed”, but then immediately confesses that neither he or Peter understood the prophecy of Jesus rising from the dead. But that night, it all changed! Ten of the disciples were hiding in a home in Jerusalem. They were scared, and they were tired. Then suddenly, Jesus enters the room! Sunday started hopeless, but now hope has entered the room … Hope, that is the message of Jesus … everything changes when hope enters. Jesus is my hope. Jesus is your hope. He is alive! He is alive! He is alive!
by Shannon Tillman | Apr 3, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
Neglect. Adultery. Manipulation. Murder. Cover-up.
David committed all of these sins as he neglected to go to war as a king should do. He then had an affair with Bathsheba since her husband was away on the battlefield. Upon discovery of her pregnancy, David called Uriah, her husband, home in an attempt to get him to sleep with his wife so the pregnancy could not be pinned on David. When that plan did not work, he had Uriah killed in battle. David took Bathsheba for his wife to wrap up the entire mess, so his baby was born in the palace.
2 Samuel 11:27b
But the thing David had done displeased the Lord.
The Lord sent Nathan, a prophet, to confront David on his actions. David had committed all of these sins about a year earlier, yet there had been no sign of repentance until the day Nathan rebuked him.
2 Samuel 12:9a
Why did you despise the word of the Lord by doing what is evil in his eyes?
It is in the midst of this conversation that David finally admitted that he had done wrong.
2 Samuel 12:13
Then David said to Nathan, “I have sinned against the Lord.”
This was not all that David did in his repentance. He wrote a song which is now recorded as Psalm 51. In the song, he laments his sin and asks restoration of his relationship with the Lord.
Psalm 51:1-2
Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.
David understood that he not only needed God’s mercy to forgive what he had done in the past, but he also needed help to live differently in the future.
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
David wrote an allegory to explain the emotional healing that takes place in confession. In his poetic discord, David gave a visual of what this healing is like.
Psalm 51:8
…let the bones which you have broken rejoice.
When a bone breaks, the bone marrow cells send a message for other cells to help the body heal. The result of these extra cells causes inflammation. Then, a substance known as callus surrounds the broken bone. Callus is a soft substance so the bone needs to be held in place during this stage of healing so no further damage occurs. That is why a broken bone is stabilized in a cast. Eventually, new cells come and form a new bone. The process takes weeks.
When do broken bones rejoice? When they are healed. If we do not go through the healing process, the “broken bones” of our lives will stay shattered instead of strengthened. The healing takes time. The healing involves steps. There is a process to be able to regain what was lost. It is not immediate, but it can come. God forgives in the moment, but restoration takes time. We want to be healed so as to be protected to not sin in the same way again.
What in your life is broken? What is not working? Do not ignore the signs but instead focus on healing in that area.
I have to do this in my own life often. The Lord shows me a sin area and takes me into root causes of that sin. Some of the issues are deep enough that I have enlisted counseling. No matter the sin issue, I always share my broken places with trusted friends for I know that vulnerability and accountability lead to transformation. We should value our healing so much that we are willing to do whatever it takes to be whole. Too many people are going through life with obvious “broken” areas which everyone else can see. However, nothing can be done to help the person until there is an acknowledgment that the “emotional bones” are hurt. Healing can be attained but only if one humbles himself to receive the help of God and others.
If we broke our arm, it would be foolish to not go to a doctor. Yet, we do not take our broken lives to our Heavenly Physician. Often, others in our lives attempt to point out areas for change, but we ignore them. By doing this, we only delay or even further damage the broken places, leading us to more sin and consequences. Sadly, this hurts not only ourselves but others in the process.
We must not delay any longer! It is time for the broken places in our hearts to be healed. Our Heavenly Physician and others help us in the process and let us know when it is time for the “cast” to come off so we can be reinstated into service. Then, our broken bones will rejoice! The joy will be evident in our lives and seen by others. We will then know we are truly whole!
(By the way, this blog stems from thoughts I wrote about myself in my journal in 2023. Now, God is dealing with me on a whole other set of broken areas in my life. He is such a good Doctor. I hope to become even more healed and whole this year! Let the broken bones rejoice!)
by Shannon Tillman | Mar 27, 2025 | Bible Study
I was so tired. A certain health issue combined with family stress had caused my body to crash. The idea of washing dishes seemed to be too overwhelming, much less accomplishing anything that really seemed to matter. The fatigue was not as discouraging as the thoughts of all the things I “should” be doing. Failure seemed to mock me on every side. I was definitely not doing “enough” based on some idea or expectation of what I assumed “enough” should look like.
God, in His gentle mercy, reminded me that I am not accountable to what I think I “should” do. Also, I am not accountable to the opinion of others or what they consider I “should” do. Instead, moment by moment I just need to be aware of the Lord. He will lead me in His time and in His way. On that difficult day, the Lord just called me to rest in His mercy, comfort, and strength.
When Jesus arrived on the scene, the Jewish community had their ideas of what the Messiah “should” do. He should rescue them from Rome, conquer all their enemies, reign from Jerusalem as their King, and usher in the Messianic era. Their expectations came from promises written in the Old Testament. One of these many Messianic prophesies could be found in the book of Isaiah.
Isaiah 61:2
“to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God…”
The Messiah will declare favor over His people and vengeance over the enemy. The Israelites were waiting for this promised victory and believed the time had come for its fulfillment. Jesus had other news for them.
Luke 4:16-20a
He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. He stood up to read, and the scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written: “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to set the oppressed free, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down.
“Wait a minute, Jesus. You only said the first part of the promise from Isaiah. We want to see vengeance on the enemy. We want to see Rome conquered and an earthly kingdom set up. Why did you stop halfway and not complete this section of scriptures?”
Jesus knew what God had called Him to do in that season of life. He knew that in His first coming, this was what He would accomplish, nothing more, nothing less. The people’s expectation of what Messiah “should” do was not going to influence what the Lord had already determined to happen. Jesus did not put more expectations on Himself or cave to the expectations of others. He simply stayed with the mission.
Luke 4:20b-21
The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him. He began by saying to them, “Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”
Jesus models the timing of ministry. He knew what He was to accomplish at that time and He knows what He will do in the future. Jesus will return to earth and will reign as King. He will conquer every enemy. However, that was not the purpose of His first coming. There was a gap of time in between that was not understood by the people. Jesus was not living according to their ideas; He was following God’s will. Thus, He was faithfully completing the part of the plan He was called to at that time.
By the way, Jesus knew the people would not like the fact that He was not going to meet their expectations.
Luke 4:24-27
And He said, “Truly I say to you, no prophet is welcome in his hometown. But I say to you in truth, there were many widows in Israel in the days of Elijah, when the sky was shut up for three years and six months, when a great famine came over all the land; and yet Elijah was sent to none of them, but only to Zarephath, in the land of Sidon, to a woman who was a widow. And there were many lepers in Israel in the time of Elisha the prophet; and none of them was cleansed, but only Naaman the Syrian.”
Jesus was letting them know that even the Old Testament gave accounts where the Gentiles (non-Jews) received from the Lord while the Jewish people did not. God’s intention for salvation encompassed all people, not just the Jews. Jesus knew His death on the cross would provide access to the Father for everyone who chooses to believe. Since this was not an expectation they had of the Messiah, the people were enraged at Jesus.
Luke 4:28-29
And all the people in the synagogue were filled with rage as they heard these things; and they got up and drove Him out of the city, and led Him to the brow of the hill on which their city had been built, in order to throw Him down the cliff.
They attempted to kill Jesus! This is His hometown of Nazareth so the crowd would have included some family and friends. (When I was struggling with my family, Jesus reminded me that although my situation was hard and painful, cruel and mean, at least my family did not try to throw me over a cliff like His did!) Their hostility did not change the mission Jesus was on.
Luke 4:30
But passing through their midst, He went His way.
Jesus knew it was not time for Him to die. He was to proclaim good news, freedom, and God’s favor. He would continue to do what God had told Him to do until He would faithfully accomplish another set of prophesies from Isaiah:
Isaiah 53:5
But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; The chastening for our well-being fell upon Him, And by His scourging we are healed.
One day, Jesus will return and fulfill the rest of the Messianic promises in Scripture. He will rescue His people, vanquish the enemy, and reign from Jerusalem. Until that day, we are to be faithful to the Lord and not be weighed down by all we think we “should” do or by the expectations of others. God will tell us His plan for us and guide our steps so we can fulfill the purpose He has for us in this season of life.
by Kevin Tillman | Mar 20, 2025 | Thoughts
One of my favorite authors A.W. Tozer says it this way…
“What we think about when we are free to think about what we will – that is what we are or will soon become.”
A.W. Tozer
King Solomon, who was considered to be the wisest man ever said it like this,
Proverbs 23:7
For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.
The power of our thinking should never be underestimated. Secular authors have made millions of dollars on the concept of positive thinking. Go into any bookstore (if you can find one) and check the self-help section. They are going to be primarily focused on your thinking. The thoughts there are if you want to be rich, think rich. If you want to be healthy, think healthy. If you want to be successful, think successful.
These concepts are actually not unbiblical. As Tozer said in the quote above, “what we think about when we are free to think … that is what we are or will become.”
Put simply, you want to change your life, then change your thinking. It’s simple to state, but a little harder to put into practice. Our minds are finicky. They play tricks on us.
Jesus gave us this same principle in the gospels …
Luke 6:45
A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from what is in your heart.
In the Bible “heart” is typically a reference to one’s entire being including thoughts and emotions. Jesus basically says here that you live out what you are on the inside. The words (and actions) that we put forth are a result of who we really are.
The apostle Paul instructs us this way …
Philippians 4:8
Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
By now, I think it’s clear. Change your thinking and you will change your life. We know this is a truth. Though it’s a Biblical concept, even a non-believer knows this to be true. Our thoughts are the epicenter of who we are. If we can control them, and change them, we will become what we think. If we don’t change them, we are what we think.
So, here’s some basic steps to start changing your thinking today …
- Read your Bible and pray. – this might be Christianity 101 stuff, but it’s the most basic truth we need to remember. The Bible has the thoughts we need. Beyond that, the Bible is the only book you will ever read that is “alive”. The words are not just a series of black and red letters. They are life-giving words that can speak directly to our soul. Prayer is also intertwined in this process. Prayer isn’t just a “bow your head” think. It’s a constant communication with God.
- Prioritize – do the things that are most important first. If you want to be healthy, don’t wait until the end of the day when you won’t do it. Do it first. Want to learn a new skill? Do it first. Prioritize. I would also add spending time with your loved ones in this category. Don’t give your biggest supporters your leftovers. Spend time FIRST with them. Prioritize family.
- Know Your Triggers – this is a big one. We are all triggered by certain things. If you’re on a diet, don’t go to the bakery. If you’re trying to stay sober, don’t go to the bar with friends. Sometimes the triggers are people. If you know someone is a trigger for you, avoid them. If that’s impossible, such as a work environment, work at controlling the time with them. Knowing your trigger can prevent a mind spiral downward.
- Flip the Script – when little negative words pop in your head turn it around immediately. When you hear “you can’t do this, you’ve tried before”, change it to “I’m determined to stay the course”. Go a step further and have someone help you with accountability.
- Discipline – this is one we don’t like to talk about, but at times is needed. Sometimes you just “don’t feel like it”. Your thinking is way off and you are doing your best to wiggle your mind out of whatever it is. Good old-fashioned will power is sometimes needed. This can’t be the only method, because it will fall short at some point. But, on occasion discipline can get us through. The end result is that at some point our thinking changes and the will power isn’t needed (or at least needed minimally).
- Return to What Worked – this is super practical. Go back to something that’s worked in the past. Maybe a certain song motivates you. Maybe there’s a special place that calms you down. Whatever it is, go back to that. Our minds are so powerful and they are triggered so easily.
- Beware of the Interference – it’s happened to all of us. You’re having a good day. Your thoughts are good. You’re getting stuff done. Then, whamo out of nowhere something challenges that. Sometimes these are unavoidable circumstances that happen in life. We can’t really do anything about those. But, I’m talking about people that try and hijack your thoughts. No one has a right to hijack your thoughts. You and only you control what you are thinking.
- Slow Down – take time to think. Not pretend thinking, real thinking. This is time to reflect. Turn off all of the noise and calm down.
From his business book “Change Your Thinking, Change Your Life” Brian Tracy says ….
Any thought or action that you repeat over and over will eventually become a new habit.
Brian Tracy
You want to change your life? Start with your thinking. Today is the day.
by Shannon Tillman | Mar 13, 2025 | Bible Study
I avoid doctors. Due to the fact that I have become nauseous just looking at the medical posters on the wall, I treat the medical community as an unwanted, unnecessary, evil intruder in my life. However, years ago, when I had some very suspicious and concerning medical situations arise, I immediately made an appointment. Thankfully, the medical scare was something benign.
Why does it usually take a crisis until we pay attention? Throughout the Bible, it is often the pains of life that cause people to cry out to God, to change their ways, and to receive the help they need.
The book of Jeremiah documents many losses Israel suffered because of their refusal to repent of their sin. The prophets had been warning the people for hundreds of years to forsake idols and to return to the Lord their God. The people did not listen. The Lord allowed outside pressures to continue to accumulate, but it was to no avail. Finally, the Lord let the people know that they would be captured by the enemy, many would be killed, others would be taken as slaves, and the city of Jerusalem would be destroyed. And it all happened just as the Lord had declared through Jeremiah who saw the destruction of his people and his land.
The pain, though, had a purpose.
Jeremiah 31:1
At that time,” declares the Lord, “I will be the God of all the families of Israel, and they will be my people.”
The Lord longs for relationship. He will allow adversity to bring us back to Himself. He wants to be God over every family. He wants us to be His people, not in name only but in character. The nation of Israel had the label of being “God’s people” but did not act in accordance to God’s ways. Often, we too do the same. We may be “Christians” but not look like Christ. When God is our God, then He makes us His people. In any area of our lives where God is not God, then we do not act, respond, or live like His people. Instead, we live and act according to what we prioritize over the Lord. For example, we may respond with control instead of trust, or pity instead of prayer, or drowning our sorrows in food or shopping compared to seeking the Lord. The hardships in life strip away the idols that we worship so that we may truly be connected to the heart of our Father in heaven. It is discipline with a purpose.
Hebrews 12:9-11
Furthermore, we had earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them; shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live? For they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them, but He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.
The discipline is to bring us into holiness, the very character of God. It is so we can enjoy our relationship with Him. The discipline is not to continue endlessly. There is a point of time that God has determined to bring wholeness back into our lives.
Jeremiah 31:1
AT THAT TIME,” declares the Lord, “I will be the God of all the families of Israel, and they will be my people.” (emphasis mine)
God looks forward to the exact moment when the relationship thrives between the Lord and His people and between one another. Families are restored as we forsake idols and serve God alone. We become His people, reflecting His heart towards others. The discipline leads to encountering God in a way we have never experienced before.
Jeremiah 31:2-3
Thus says the Lord, “The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness— Israel, when it went to find its rest.” The Lord appeared to him from afar, saying,“I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore I have drawn you with lovingkindness.
The discipline was an act of love to draw us out from our idols to the wilderness, to be in a place where it is only the person and God. We then encounter His grace, rest, and love. Here, we have Him speak His personal love messages to us. Then, He commissions us to healing and joy.
Jeremiah 31:4-5
“Again I will build you and you will be rebuilt, O virgin of Israel! Again you will take up your tambourines, And go forth to the dances of the merrymakers.”
The discipline not only rescues us from ourselves and from our idols, but it enables us to make a difference in the lives of others.
Jeremiah 31:5-6
“Again you will plant vineyards On the hills of Samaria; The planters will plant and will enjoy them. “For there will be a day when watchmen on the hills of Ephraim call out, ‘Arise, and let us go up to Zion, to the Lord our God.’”
Others will reap the fruit of our changed lives and will discover the Lord God. How much better than for others to reap the destruction caused by our idols! As we evaluate our lives, may anything not of the Lord be a point of repentance and may the ways of the Lord be embraced. We want to be one of “God’s people” in every area of our lives so that our families and those around us can also be impacted by the Lord.
Maybe today is time for a “spiritual” check-up. Lord, show us where we are your people and where we are not acting like your people. Help us to repent and change. We can rejoice together over our lives being transformed by your grace and love!
by Kevin Tillman | Mar 6, 2025 | Bible Study
If you’ve been around Christianity very long at all, you’ve heard the word “freedom”. It’s at the core of the gospel message. We are set free from our bondage to sin and death.
Galatians 5:1
So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don’t get tied up again in slavery to the law.
So, here’s the million dollar question: If freedom is the whole purpose, why are so many Christians not free? Before you get scared off, this isn’t going to be yet another blog about “get your act together and quit sinning.” I mean, sure, our sins without a doubt are a major source of our bondage, but maybe there’s more to the story. What about the Christian that is sincerely trying? I mean seeking God … doing Bible study, attending worship, praying, practicing the disciplines. They’re even fighting their fleshly desires. Yet still, the freedom seems to be elusive.
In this blog, I’d like to propose the idea of levels of freedom. In other words, there is some freedom found, but then there is something else that seems to keep us bound. It’s like a never-ending cycle. We are free, but then, we’re not free. We’re free from one thing, and then it’s something else. I know this seems a bit confusing, and for the theology nerds almost heretical, so let me point to scripture.
We’ll take a look at one of the most popular stories in the Bible (for you old timers out there, you’re about to see Charlton Heston). God’s people, the nation of Israel, was in captivity. They were slaves in Egypt. This lasted 430 years. Don’t gloss by that number. We read the Bible too quickly sometimes and miss the numbers. 430 years is a really, really long time. For comparison sake, we live in 2025 at the time of this writing. 430 years ago was 1595. For kicks I googled famous people in 1595 and came up with William Shakespeare and Pocahontas. We get all worked up over a situation that lasts more than a month. But slavery for 430 years? That’s a really long time!
Finally the day came, the plagues were too much. Pharoah was done with it. So …
Exodus 12:31
Pharaoh sent for Moses and Aaron during the night. “Get out!” he ordered. “Leave my people—and take the rest of the Israelites with you! Go and worship the Lord as you have requested.
There it is – freedom. Finally, set free from slavery. They are now free to go. After 430 years, what a day this was. A time to celebrate. This one event is the central piece in Judaism, and Christianity as well. Jews commemorate Passover annually as a reminder of the day they were set free. For Christians, it is a precursor to the cross, but another blog for another day. Without a doubt this is a huge deal. But wait, there’s more, this story is just getting started.
Exodus 13:17-18
When Pharaoh finally let the people go, GOD DID NOT LEAD THEM ALONG THE MAIN ROAD that runs through Philistine territory, EVEN THOUGH THAT WAS THE SHORTEST ROUTE to the Promised Land. God said, “If the people are faced with a battle, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” So God led them in a roundabout way through the wilderness toward the Red Sea. Thus the Israelites left Egypt LIKE AN ARMY READY FOR BATTLE. (emphasis added).
Do you see the emphasis there? They are set free, but God doesn’t give them the short cut. Even though they are free, there are still obstacles ahead. As believers, so often we think that an answered prayer and a “word from God” means it’s smooth sailing from here on out. Nothing could be further from the truth. In this instance, the reason is given for the detour … “they might change their minds and return.” We don’t always get the explanation for our detours, and God doesn’t owe us that. But, we can be sure, if there is a detour, it has a purpose. I love that last part as well, “like and army ready for battle”. Set free? Yes. But still ready for what might be coming. we should be vigilant and prepared for any attack that might be coming. And oh, by the way, that’s exactly what’s about to happen in this story …
Exodus 14:5-9
When word reached the king of Egypt that the Israelites had fled, Pharaoh and his officials changed their minds. “What have we done, letting all those Israelite slaves get away?” they asked. So Pharaoh harnessed his chariot and called up his troops. He took with him 600 of Egypt’s best chariots, along with the rest of the chariots of Egypt, each with its commander. The Lord hardened the heart of Pharaoh, the king of Egypt, so he chased after the people of Israel, who had left with fists raised in defiance. The Egyptians chased after them with all the forces in Pharaoh’s army—all his horses and chariots, his charioteers, and his troops. The Egyptians caught up with the people of Israel as they were camped beside the shore near Pi-hahiroth, across from Baal-zephon.
They haven’t been free long at all, and now they are being chased down. Not just a little by the way. Once again, don’t gloss over the numbers and words in the Bible. “He took with him 600 of Egypt’s best chariots”, but it goes on to say, “along with the rest of the chariots of Egypt, each with its commander”. First we have to overcome the image of a puny chariot. If you’ve seen the old movies, you have the image of this thing on two wheels being pulled by a horse. It’s struggling to not tip over as it moves along the rough terrain. We compare those to our modern day warfare. Yeah, it’s no match for a tank, but in those days it was the tank! we see there are 600, but also more. Those 600 were in likelihood the generals, the top dogs. So, they not only brought their one chariot, but also all of the forces they commanded. We don’t know the number, but there would be more horsemen without a chariot, foot soldiers, we do know there are even more chariots that aren’t generals. Now, picture the spearmen and the archers. A general would never travel alone, but rather he would be surrounded by a variety of infantry and weapons. So, make no mistake this is an all out pursuit.
These next few verses are some of the saddest in Scripture, not just because of this story, but also it’s implications today …
Exodus 14:10-12
As Pharaoh approached, the people of Israel looked up and panicked when they saw the Egyptians overtaking them. They cried out to the Lord, and they said to Moses, “Why did you bring us out here to die in the wilderness? Weren’t there enough graves for us in Egypt? What have you done to us? Why did you make us leave Egypt? Didn’t we tell you this would happen while we were still in Egypt? We said, ‘Leave us alone! Let us be slaves to the Egyptians. It’s better to be a slave in Egypt than a corpse in the wilderness!’”
They have been set free. They are no longer under slavery. Yet, here they are in fear for their lives. Before we judge them too harshly, picture yourself there as well. This massive army is approaching. Remember this is a huge mighty force coming to get you.
Isn’t that just like us though? We experience some level of freedom, but then a road block occurs. We feel trapped. We don’t see a way out. And then, there it is, our past is chasing us down. Thoughts of “why don’t you just go back” creep into our thinking. Or, “at least you knew where you stood” back there. As believers, the enemy doesn’t ever give up on us. There is always a plan to bring us down. There is a pursuit, a battle for you.
So, how did this happen? Why did God allow this? How did they even get here in the first place?
Exodus 13:20-22
The Israelites left Succoth and camped at Etham on the edge of the wilderness. The Lord went ahead of them. He guided them during the day with a pillar of cloud, and he provided light at night with a pillar of fire. This allowed them to travel by day or by night. And the Lord did not remove the pillar of cloud or pillar of fire from its place in front of the people.
How did they get in this trapped situation? God led them there. Wait, what? Yeah, God led them by a cloud pillar during the day, and a pillar of fire at night. He led them right to this point, and now they are stuck. Hold tight, there’s a reason, and we’ll get to it.
Have you ever just said, “God just show me Your will”? Or, “God can you make this clear for me?”. Well, in this case it was obvious. I mean sometimes I wish I had a big ole ball of fire that would show me what to do. They had it. The Israelites had an undoubtable direction. Can you imagine the celebration up until this point? 430 years of slavery is gone, and now a ball of fire is leading them. Cue the Hallelujah Chorus!
But, that’s not the end of the story. They had experienced freedom, but they are about to experience another level of freedom.
Let’s set the scene again. We know the approaching army is close enough to be seen. The Israelites are now in fear. These aren’t the days of radar, so this blitz is close. They are within minutes of being overtaken. Fear is in the camp. You likely know this story, and the ending, but on the other side, there is no where to run. There lies the unpassable Red Sea. They are stuck.
Exodus 14:13-14
But Moses told the people, “Don’t be afraid. Just stand still and watch the Lord rescue you today. The Egyptians you see today will never be seen again. The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.”
Another number to not minimize. We know there were around 600,000 men with the Israelites. That means a rough estimate that includes women and children would be around 2 or 3 million people that Moses is talking to. That’s roughly the population of Chicago for comparison sake. Moses doesn’t know the outcome. He doesn’t know how God is going to work this out. He does, however, have a disgruntled mob in front of him. I don’t envy what Moses had to do. In my own translation, he basically said, “every one calm down, it’s going to be OK, God is going to show up”. You just know there were some in the crowd that were yelling back. “Yeah but how?” or “Why did God do this to us?” or “That’s not good enough” or even those that wanted to usurp Moses’ authority … “who does this guy think he is?” or likely, “shut up dude, sit down”, and yeah, there was the smattering of “boos”. This was an angry mob on the verge of riot. They were ticked off.
Once again they are trapped. The Red Sea is before them, the army is approaching from the back. And they got here how? Because God led them right into this predicament.
Exodus 14:19-20
Then the angel of God, who had been leading the people of Israel, moved to the rear of the camp. The pillar of cloud also moved from the front and stood behind them. The cloud settled between the Egyptian and Israelite camps. As darkness fell, the cloud turned to fire, lighting up the night. But the Egyptians and Israelites did not approach each other all night.
What a night this was. That fireball that had been leading them into this dead end, suddenly moves behind them. This cloud and fire parks itself right between the pursing Egyptians and the Israelites. Basically, the Egyptian force was stopped cold in their tracks. The best fighting army on planet Earth was stopped by a bunch of fog and a ball of fire.
We should take note, that when God leads us out of our bondage, He’s going to continue to protect us from it. That’s a pretty important sentence I just typed, worth repeating .. When God leads us out of our bondage, He’s going to continue to protect us from it.
The stage is set. They now have a rear guard, but there’s still a major obstacle ahead. You know the story …
Exodus 14:21-22
Then Moses raised his hand over the sea, and the Lord opened up a path through the water with a strong east wind. The wind blew all that night, turning the seabed into dry land. So the people of Israel walked through the middle of the sea on dry ground, with walls of water on each side!
Here it is, another level of freedom. They had been set free from slavery a mere few days ago. But it wasn’t over yet. There was yet another level of freedom to be had.
You know the rest of the story. The Egyptian armies continued their pursuit through the walled off waters of the Red Sea. Not specifically stated in the text, but we can easily interpret that the angel of cloud and fire removed the barrier, allowing the Egyptian pursuit. Once they were in the waters, and the Israelites were safe on the other side, Moses raised his rod again, and the waters flooded back in. The enemy was defeated. The past was now longer there to chase them.
Exodus 14:31
When the people of Israel saw the mighty power that the Lord had unleashed against the Egyptians, they were filled with awe before him. They put their faith in the Lord and in his servant Moses.
Within a few short days, two major miracles. First, the release from bondage in Egypt. Second, the miraculous Red Sea crossing. Two levels of freedom achieved and witnessed. And their faith was strengthened.
Wouldn’t it be great if the story ended right there with “and they lived happily ever after.” Unfortunately, that’s not the case. Here’s the quick cliff notes version. After crossing the Red Sea, God establishes His covenant with His people through the Ten Commandments. Immediately, disobedience and idol worship takes place, so 40 years of wandering in the wilderness happens. After 40 years, they finally entered the promised land, but again idol worship and conflicts occur. A period of judges is instituted due to the unfaithfulness of the people. There was constant backsliding and worship of foreign gods. Many kings came and went. Good kings and bad kings. Prophets continually pointed to the truth. During this time the nation of Israel followed God, then didn’t. They made idols, then they destroyed them. They were up and they were down. It would be around 1500 years from the Red Sea crossing until the birth of Jesus.
The point is, freedom happened. They were set free, but there was still more freedom to be had. There was a “next level freedom”. It could be said that Jesus was the ultimate freedom. I wouldn’t argue with that point, because all of the Old Testament did indeed point towards Jesus. He is the “once and for all” sacrifice. He brings that ultimate freedom.
But, I think we can still learn a bit about our human nature and the concept of freedom from these Old Testament stories. In other words, we can be set free from our past slavery, but it’s still going to chase us. We can get in dire circumstances like the Red Sea that seem impossible. Then, even after those levels of freedom, there is still wandering. There is still the challenge of idols in our own lives. Once we are set free from one thing, another thing can be there waiting on us.
Freedom over sin, and freedom over death is a once and for all. Jesus has paid that price, and if we are “in Christ” we are set free. But, that doesn’t mean it’s a cake walk. There are still levels of freedom. Our walk with God is a constant pursuit of reaching that next level of freedom.
Wherever you are today in your freedom journey, know that there is more. There is always more. There is another level of freedom.
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 27, 2025 | Bible Study
“It just didn’t work out”. This sentence summarizes an end to a situation or a relationship. However, this statement is from our perspective, not from God’s point of view. The Lord has a different summary over our circumstances:
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
God says “It will work out”. We may not know when or how, but it will work for good even if we are not around to see it happen.
Such was the case for the prophet Isaiah. He would not live to see the miracle from the murder. This story began not with a crime, but instead with a healing from a death bed.
2 Kings 20:1-6a
In those days Hezekiah became mortally ill. And Isaiah the prophet the son of Amoz came to him and said to him, “Thus says the Lord, ‘Set your house in order, for you shall die and not live.’” Then he turned his face to the wall and prayed to the Lord, saying, “Remember now, O Lord, I beseech You, how I have walked before You in truth and with a whole heart and have done what is good in Your sight.” And Hezekiah wept bitterly. Before Isaiah had gone out of the middle court, the word of the Lord came to him, saying, “Return and say to Hezekiah the leader of My people, ‘Thus says the Lord, the God of your father David, “I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; behold, I will heal you. On the third day you shall go up to the house of the Lord. I will add fifteen years to your life…
Hezekiah was on the verge of death, yet God added fifteen years to his life. This is one of those “hallelujah moments”. Imagine how faith in the Lord increased by all of those who had witnessed this miraculous event. Isaiah had the honor of declaring the word of the Lord to king Hezekiah and to see the king recover. God honored His promise and Hezekiah lived another fifteen years. During this time, he fathered a son named Manasseh who would become king after his father’s death.
2 Kings 21:1-3
Manasseh was twelve years old when he became king, and he reigned fifty-five years in Jerusalem; and his mother’s name was Hephzibah. He did evil in the sight of the Lord, according to the abominations of the nations whom the Lord dispossessed before the sons of Israel. For he rebuilt the high places which Hezekiah his father had destroyed; and he erected altars for Baal and made an Asherah, as Ahab king of Israel had done, and worshiped all the host of heaven and served them.
Manasseh was evil. His father, Hezekiah, had been a godly king, but Manasseh was considered the most wicked king in all of Judah’s history. He not only set up idols, he sacrificed some of his children to them. He practiced witchcraft and placed evil images in the holy temple of the Lord. God told the prophets that Manasseh was more wicked than the nations that had been driven out of the Promised Land before Israel settled there.
2 Kings 21:9
…Manasseh seduced them to do evil more than the nations whom the Lord destroyed before the sons of Israel.
His evil corrupted the nation of Judah which followed his wicked ways. This led to a loss of many lives, for Manasseh was a cold-blooded killer.
2 Kings 21:16
Moreover, Manasseh shed very much innocent blood until he had filled Jerusalem from one end to another; besides his sin with which he made Judah sin, in doing evil in the sight of the Lord.
According to ancient Jewish and Christian tradition, the prophet Isaiah was killed by king Manasseh. He was murdered by being sawed in two. Some scholars believe a verse of Hebrews may reference Isaiah’s death:
Hebrews 11:37-38
They were put to death by stoning; they were SAWED IN TWO; they were killed by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, living in caves and in holes in the ground. (emphasis mine)
Let’s put the pieces together. Isaiah informed Hezekiah that the king was about to die. Hezekiah cried out to the Lord. God told Isaiah to let Hezekiah know that his life would be extended fifteen years. Three years later, Manasseh was born. Nine years after that, Hezekiah died and Manasseh became the most murderous, idolatrous king in Judah’s history. His reign of terror included killing the very prophet who was a part of his father’s miraculous healing.
Can you imagine Isaiah’s cries to the Lord? He had to witness the complete surrender of the nation to evil, such evil that people were killed to appease these false gods. Isaiah knew Manasseh was born after the miraculous healing of Hezekiah. “Why, Lord?” If Hezekiah had died, Manasseh would not have been born to kill so many people, to entice the nation to idolatry, witchcraft, and perversion. On top of the wretchedness Isaiah witnessed in the nation, he himself is murdered by Manasseh. I think an understatement would be to say “That didn’t work out”. This story has so many heart-wrenching questions and layers that seem to end in only allowing evil to triumph and good to be destroyed. Except, God intervenes in a surprising way.
2 Chronicles 33:10-11
The Lord spoke to Manasseh and his people, but they paid no attention. Therefore the Lord brought the commanders of the army of the king of Assyria against them, and they captured Manasseh with hooks, bound him with bronze chains and took him to Babylon.
The Lord had given warnings, most likely even through the prophet Isaiah. For the book of Isaiah records many warnings to the people of Judah. Yet, Manasseh and the people ignored the warnings. The Lord allowed Manasseh to be taken prisoner to a foreign land.
If this was the end of the story, we could at least settle for our ideas of justice taking place. Yet, this justice turns into a miracle.
2 Chronicles 33:12-13
When he was in distress, he entreated the Lord his God and humbled himself greatly before the God of his fathers. When he prayed to Him, He was moved by his entreaty and heard his supplication, and brought him again to Jerusalem to his kingdom. Then Manasseh knew that the Lord was God.
Manasseh, the murderous idol worshipper, becomes a believer in the Lord God! Manasseh, the evil king, became the humbled prisoner, was miraculously released from prison and allowed to rule again in Judah. This time, he reigned with a new heart.
2 Chronicles 33:15-16
He also removed the foreign gods and the idol from the house of the Lord, as well as all the altars which he had built on the mountain of the house of the Lord and in Jerusalem, and he threw them outside the city. He set up the altar of the Lord and sacrificed peace offerings and thank offerings on it; and he ordered Judah to serve the Lord God of Israel.
The idol worshiper becomes an evangelist of the Lord! Only God could have foreseen such a tremendous ending to an otherwise horrendous story.
On the day Isaiah died, it may have seemed that “Things didn’t work out”. The truth is, it worked out for a greater, miraculous good than could have ever been imagined. God is faithful to His promise:
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
Whatever situation that looks like it is not working out in our lives, means that it is not yet over. The final chapter has not been written. At some point whether we are still on earth, or only seeing the highlights in heaven, we will be able to testify that God did work it out for good and it is truly marvelous!
What do we need to do while we wait for God to work it all for good? We must pray. Manasseh cried out to the Lord from his prison cell and received a miracle. His father, Hezekiah, had cried out to the Lord from his death bed and received a miracle. Cry out to God, in your situation that looks hopeless and wait for the Lord to intervene and bring a miracle.
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 20, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
My husband and I have been walking through a season of profound loss over the last few years. Every part of our lives has been impacted. My heart would still be grieving over one loss when another would burst upon the scene. My emotions felt so raw and our lives so mangled. At a conference I spoke at, I told the crowd that we were living a country song because we even lost our precious dog. You can’t get more country than that!
My prayers seemed to be more tears than words. My dear prayer partners were often left speechless as the events of my life unfolded; they did not know what to say to even attempt to encourage me. The book of Job was sometimes referenced and I often heard, “I don’t know, but I can pray for you.” Their prayers for me were so precious because they knew I did not have any more prayer inside to pour out. One day, I said to the Lord, “I have been stripped of everything.” There was not a single area of life that I could point to that had not been devastated in some way.
The Lord’s answer to me was gentle but clear, “If something or someone is already surrendered, it would not be stripped.”
At first, I was taken aback by what He said. Did that mean God stripped me to punish me? But then my mind felt the words of Job:
Job 1:21
Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.”
Job spoke these words after the loss of all his possessions, the loss of the majority of his servants, and the loss of all ten of his children. It was not the Lord who actually caused the devastation; Satan did that.
Job 1:8-12
Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.” “Does Job fear God for nothing?” Satan replied. “Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face.” The Lord said to Satan, “Very well, then, everything he has is in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.” Then Satan went out from the presence of the Lord.
Satan proceeded in wreaking havoc in Job’s life. Yet, Job responded in worship rooted in His profound trust of the Lord. Job understood that God is sovereign even over the enemy’s devastation in our lives.
Job 1:22
In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.
Life will have its share of pain and loss. Jesus even promised it:
John 16:33b
“…In this world you will have trouble…”
That is usually not the promise people print out and stick on their mirror for encouragement for the day. “Yippee, I get to face trouble today!” We want the promises of victory, strength, blessings, healing, and prosperity; not verses on trouble.
The truth is, life is trouble. We live in a fallen world, with sinful people (which I am one of especially when I am hungry, so this is your warning), with a powerful enemy who seeks to destroy us. There will be losses; there will be pain; there will be heartaches; there will be death.
If we hold tightly onto the people and things around us, losses will feel like pieces of our heart are being stripped away. But when we surrender each piece, each person as painful as it may be, we are surrendering to the sovereign God who rules over every situation in our lives. I realized that day God was inviting me to surrender my pain to Him. Instead of staying focused on all that was stripped from us, I needed to look to the one who was over my entire life. “Lord, I do not understand why this was allowed to happen, but I choose to trust you.” The loss was the same, but my heart was changed.
I knew God could have prevented everything that happened and the season we are still walking through. He is mighty, powerful, and able to perform miracles. Yet, in my world I still have trouble. I can blame God or I can blame others which just keeps me distant from true comfort in my time of pain. I can focus on the losses and stay stuck in the question of “why” which magnifies every painful situation and leaves me feeling like a victim in a cosmic war. Or I can surrender each heartbreak to the Lord and trust that He sees, He knows, and He will eventually bring blessing out of the pain in His timing and in His way.
Job 42:12
The Lord blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the former part.
There will be a moment when I will finally see the goodness of God in each area of my life that has been impacted by the severe losses we have suffered. In the end, the blessing of God will overtake the destruction of the enemy. I do not know when that will take place or how it will look in the end. However, I know I can trust all that has been surrendered to Him.
Job 1:21b
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.
