by Shannon Tillman | Feb 20, 2025 | Bible Study, Thoughts
My husband and I have been walking through a season of profound loss over the last few years. Every part of our lives has been impacted. My heart would still be grieving over one loss when another would burst upon the scene. My emotions felt so raw and our lives so mangled. At a conference I spoke at, I told the crowd that we were living a country song because we even lost our precious dog. You can’t get more country than that!
My prayers seemed to be more tears than words. My dear prayer partners were often left speechless as the events of my life unfolded; they did not know what to say to even attempt to encourage me. The book of Job was sometimes referenced and I often heard, “I don’t know, but I can pray for you.” Their prayers for me were so precious because they knew I did not have any more prayer inside to pour out. One day, I said to the Lord, “I have been stripped of everything.” There was not a single area of life that I could point to that had not been devastated in some way.
The Lord’s answer to me was gentle but clear, “If something or someone is already surrendered, it would not be stripped.”
At first, I was taken aback by what He said. Did that mean God stripped me to punish me? But then my mind felt the words of Job:
Job 1:21
Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.”
Job spoke these words after the loss of all his possessions, the loss of the majority of his servants, and the loss of all ten of his children. It was not the Lord who actually caused the devastation; Satan did that.
Job 1:8-12
Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.” “Does Job fear God for nothing?” Satan replied. “Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face.” The Lord said to Satan, “Very well, then, everything he has is in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.” Then Satan went out from the presence of the Lord.
Satan proceeded in wreaking havoc in Job’s life. Yet, Job responded in worship rooted in His profound trust of the Lord. Job understood that God is sovereign even over the enemy’s devastation in our lives.
Job 1:22
In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.
Life will have its share of pain and loss. Jesus even promised it:
John 16:33b
“…In this world you will have trouble…”
That is usually not the promise people print out and stick on their mirror for encouragement for the day. “Yippee, I get to face trouble today!” We want the promises of victory, strength, blessings, healing, and prosperity; not verses on trouble.
The truth is, life is trouble. We live in a fallen world, with sinful people (which I am one of especially when I am hungry, so this is your warning), with a powerful enemy who seeks to destroy us. There will be losses; there will be pain; there will be heartaches; there will be death.
If we hold tightly onto the people and things around us, losses will feel like pieces of our heart are being stripped away. But when we surrender each piece, each person as painful as it may be, we are surrendering to the sovereign God who rules over every situation in our lives. I realized that day God was inviting me to surrender my pain to Him. Instead of staying focused on all that was stripped from us, I needed to look to the one who was over my entire life. “Lord, I do not understand why this was allowed to happen, but I choose to trust you.” The loss was the same, but my heart was changed.
I knew God could have prevented everything that happened and the season we are still walking through. He is mighty, powerful, and able to perform miracles. Yet, in my world I still have trouble. I can blame God or I can blame others which just keeps me distant from true comfort in my time of pain. I can focus on the losses and stay stuck in the question of “why” which magnifies every painful situation and leaves me feeling like a victim in a cosmic war. Or I can surrender each heartbreak to the Lord and trust that He sees, He knows, and He will eventually bring blessing out of the pain in His timing and in His way.
Job 42:12
The Lord blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the former part.
There will be a moment when I will finally see the goodness of God in each area of my life that has been impacted by the severe losses we have suffered. In the end, the blessing of God will overtake the destruction of the enemy. I do not know when that will take place or how it will look in the end. However, I know I can trust all that has been surrendered to Him.
Job 1:21b
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.
by Shannon Tillman | Feb 6, 2025 | Bible Study
I never watched the movie Braveheart. I get woozy and nauseous even with fake Hollywood war scenes. That movie is not on my list. However, I know the famous cry is for “Freedom”, to no longer be captive to the oppressors. While we may know this theme from movies, do we know the reality of freedom in our own lives?
2 Peter 2:19
They promise them freedom, while they themselves are slaves of depravity—for people are slaves to whatever has mastered them.
What has mastered us? What sin do we think is just going to be a part of our lives to the end of our days? Maybe we have excused it with the lie of “that is just the way I am” or even the lie of “it is not that big of deal”. However, we are a slave to that sin. Slaves! That means we are not in control, instead the sin controls us. We can claim freedom while being completely in bondage!
Does that frighten anyone besides me? I do not want anything to be my dictator, my captor, my slave master. Jesus spoke of this as well.
John 8:34
Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin.
This verse applies to everyone! We have two choices: slavery or freedom. Slavery comes from choosing habitual sin. This verse applies to those who know Jesus as well as those who do not.
2 Peter 2:20-21
If they have escaped the corruption of the world by knowing our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and are again entangled in it and are overcome, they are worse off at the end than they were at the beginning. It would have been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than to have known it and then to turn their backs on the sacred command that was passed on to them.
We can know Jesus and then become entangled again to this world which is considered worse than never knowing Him at all. We must guard against this world that wants to take us captive once more to its systems. The enemy desires us to return to our former sinful ways so that we may become slaves once again.
2 Peter 2:22
Of them the proverbs are true: “A dog returns to its vomit,” and, “A sow that is washed returns to her wallowing in the mud.”
Did you know it is possible to not return to incessant sin? To stay free? We do not have to be like a dog returning to vomit or a pig wallowing in mud. We can have a new way of life that is not connected to the sin that seems to keep us in bondage. It is our choice. Will we stay entangled in the world and remain a slave or will we let Jesus set us free?
John 8:34-36
Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
The only way to escape the bondage of sin is for the Son to set us free. We can escape slavery by remaining in a relationship with Jesus. His desire is for us to escape captivity in order to live as children of God.
We know that we are children and not slaves by living according to the Father’s will, revealed in His Word.
John 8:31-32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
When we live according to the Word, we are free. When we live according to the world, we are slaves. We decide each day, each moment what we live by. We can be children or captives; the choice is ours.
Wherever there is habitually sin in our lives, we can cry out to Jesus to free us. And when He sets us free, we will be free indeed. The freedom is beyond not just being a slave, but enjoying the relationship as children with our Heavenly Father. And we do not even have to paint our face blue and yell “freedom” in a Scottish accent (that is a reference to the movie Braveheart for all of you who are squeamish like me). We will be free!
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 30, 2025 | Bible Study
The nation of Judah had been repeatedly warned. The prophets called for the people to forsake their idols and return to the Lord. The nation ignored the warnings. One of the prophets, Jeremiah, not only delivered the message, he also witnessed firsthand the fulfillment of judgment. The people were attacked by the Babylonians as they had been repeatedly told. In an attempt to save their lives, the people tore down their own houses to build what was needed in a futile attempt to keep the enemy from victory.
Jeremiah 33:4-5a
For this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says about the houses in this city and the royal palaces of Judah that have been torn down to be used against the siege ramps and the sword in the fight with the Babylonians…
What the nation of Judah did then is the same thing we do today. Households, and families are broken down in human-strategized attempts to fight the enemy. This only leads to defeat. What was needed for Judah is what we need now. Victory occurs when we repent of our sin and forsake our idols. If they had heeded the warnings from the prophets, repented from sin, and turned away from idols; the attack from the enemy would never have taken place.
How many battles do we cause ourselves? Instead of an honest evaluation of our sins, we tend to blame others or blame the enemy. What are the sins in our lives that we keep excusing? That sin damages not just us, but those around us. What do we rely on instead of God? That is our idols. Maybe it is money, a relationship, your own reasoning, your opinion, your decision-making abilities, control, power, or even enabling the sin of others is sin as well. Refusing to forsake the idols allows the enemy access into our lives. This can destroy our families. The next generation suffers because of our own choices to disobey the Lord.
The enemy was allowed by God to attack Judah because they refused to give up their idols. They had ignored the prophets who had warned them of the coming destruction. They continued with their same ways, same lifestyles, same sins. Just like this nation, we destroy our families by our own hands.
Jeremiah 33:5
‘They will be filled with the dead bodies of the people I will slay in my anger and wrath. I will hide my face from this city because of all its wickedness.
None of this had to occur. The people did not have to suffer, lives did not have to be lost, enslavement did not have to take place. If only this generation had chosen to repent and forsake their idols! Their lives would have been spared and their children would have been delivered from harm. It comes down to a choice. The same choice we have today. We can choose to ignore the Word of God and stay in sin, or we can repent.
I want to make a note here, this message was given to the people of God. Of course, those who do not know the Lord need to repent and turn to Jesus. But here, I am writing to us believers. We cannot coddle sin in our lives any longer, to excuse it as “not a big deal”. In the nation of Judah, the sacrifices in the Temple of God were still taking place. The people had “church” and their idols, too. This is what we are being called to stop. We must repent from having our lives somewhat in God and somewhat in the world. This sin is what led to the destruction of families, the downfall of a nation, and children forced to live in slavery. The choice to save our families comes down to our decision today. When we repent, God will restore our families in an amazing way.
Jeremiah 33:6
“‘Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.
God wants to bring health and healing to our families. Once again, this is not just for the “unsaved”. God says He will heal “My people” (emphasis mine). This is referring to the people of God. We must face our sin and idols, not excuse them any longer. What needs to be removed from our lives so that blessing may come? God desires to brings us an abundance of “peace and security”. Another version of the Bible says an abundance of “peace and truth”. This is the standard. If any part of our lives or our households showcase chaos, worry, anxiety, falsehoods, instability, etc. then it is the evidence that we are not living in God’s healing but living in our own sin. But we can be changed!
Jeremiah 33:7-8
I will bring Judah and Israel back from captivity and will rebuild them as they were before. I will cleanse them from all the sin they have committed against me and will forgive all their sins of rebellion against me.
The Lord desires to set us free and help us to rebuild what we broke and tore down. We can be cleansed and forgiven. We then become new, which is reflected in our families. Instead of having broken lives and broken families, we will be testimonies of joy!
Jeremiah 33:9
Then this city will bring me renown, joy, praise and honor before all nations on earth that hear of all the good things I do for it; and they will be in awe and will tremble at the abundant prosperity and peace I provide for it.’
Our families can be known for joy, praise, and glory instead of pain, chaos and destruction. Others will hear of the good in our families, not the problems. Instead of fearing the enemy attack, we can live in reverence to the Lord and His goodness towards us.
Jeremiah 33:26b
…For I will restore their fortunes and have compassion on them.’”
Lord, please have mercy on us. In all ways we have torn down our own household, will you please restore us? We are sorry for the excuses we made about our sins instead of repenting from our sins. We choose to forsake our idols and serve you alone. Thank you for Your compassion on us. Thank you that when we repent, You rebuild us and our families. You are so good to us. Amen.
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 23, 2025 | Thoughts
I have never physically birthed a child. However, I was in a delivery room one time with a friend. I was not expecting to be there at the time when the little baby came, much less be asked to stay in the room during the process. (Just a side note: I am not the one you want with you in an emergency situation. I get woozy at the thought of blood. The mere talk about our body’s circulatory system can make me faint. Please do not show me pictures of anything medical in nature. I appreciate that the doctor fixed you up in surgery, but I do not want those images set before my eyes for your sake and for mine. It would be embarrassing that I fainted because of your pain!) While I thought the entire process was a horrific ordeal, the mom would testify that though the childbirth was difficult, the joy from the birth of the child was worth the pain!
The curse from Eve was difficulty in childbirth. Due to her eating from the forbidden tree of the knowledge of good and evil, she received punishment concerning the process of having children. The Lord told her:
Genesis 3:16b
I will make your pains in childbearing very severe; with painful labor you will give birth to children.
I want to take this verse and bring it to a spiritual application. Paul himself does this in the book of Galatians. Paul had been a missionary to the region of Galatia and saw many come to faith in Jesus. Later, after he left the area, doctrinal error came into the church. They believed that the addition of works helped them to be saved instead of faith alone in Christ. Paul wrote a letter to address the heresy. In the letter, he compared himself to a mother who had labored for her children’s lives.
Galatians 4:19-20
My dear children, for whom I am again in the pains of childbirth until Christ is formed in you, how I wish I could be with you now and change my tone, because I am perplexed about you!
Paul understood that spiritual labor is difficult, painful, and often messy. Ministry to others is labor. Yet, we are called to labor, to work, to invest in bearing “spiritual” children. It costs us time, energy, pain, and even loss. The labor is not completed at the moment of their acceptance as Jesus as their Savior. If so, then Paul would not have felt like he was in labor again for his spiritual children. The labor continues as we see our children grow as disciples. Sometimes there are moments of parental pride and other times parental pain. No matter the situation, this is an assignment. We are all called to co-labor with Christ to “bear” spiritual children, also called disciples, on this earth.
Matthew 28:18-20
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
Good parents do not have children to abandon them, but to raise them. All the time, resources, discipline, conversations, caretaking, and everything else involved is to see the baby grow up to become a fully functioning adult. Parents want the children to have more than what they have, to accomplish more than what they did, and to raise up a healthy and whole next generation. This entails many sacrifices of the parents for the children. Each loving parent would say the joy of having the child outweighs the cost.
We are not called to live unto ourselves. We each must endure the labor to birth spiritual children in this world. It is our calling to fulfill the blessing originally given to Adam and Eve when God told them:
Genesis 1:28a
God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it.
We need to be fruitful and increase in number. It is not an easy calling. It involves painful labor. It is duty as believers to reach out to the world and see lives changed by the name of Jesus. It is a giving of our lives so others may have life.
1 Thessalonians 2:7b-8
Just as a nursing mother cares for her children, so we cared for you. Because we loved you so much, we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well.
Our lives should be about others. We are to tenderly care for others, love others, delight to share the gospel with others, and to share our lives with others. This cannot be done from a distance, but engaging closely with those around us. This is an intensive, all-encompassing call to see lives changed! However, the messy, painful labor will be worth the sacrifice as we gaze upon the spiritual children God will give us!
by Shannon Tillman | Jan 16, 2025 | Bible Study
The prolonged time of distress weighs on me. I am faced with pain and losses around me. I hurt with situations in my own life, and I hurt with others who are suffering. The question we all seem to ask is, “How long, Lord?” We in our finite minds, trapped in time, want to know when the pain will end.
As I pondered the question, I received an unexpected answer from God, simply one word – “Rahab”.
His word caused more questions in my heart. “Really, Lord, that is how You are answering me? That is all I get? I want to know specific times and dates of when the situations will finally end. I want to see You move on my behalf and for others so we can celebrate your victory. Yet, all I get is the word “Rahab”? What does that mean?”
We find the story of Rahab in Joshua chapter two. Moses had died. Joshua is now the leader of Israel. They are commanded to conquer the Promised Land. They had been commissioned to do so forty years earlier, but due to the sin of unbelief, they wandered the desert instead, until everyone over the age of twenty died. Only Joshua and Caleb, the two men who believed God would give them victory were allowed to live. However, they had to bear the consequences of the wilderness journey along with the Israelites. Now the time had come for the people to take the land.
Joshua 2:1
Then Joshua son of Nun secretly sent two spies from Shittim. “Go, look over the land,” he said, “especially Jericho.” So they went and entered the house of a prostitute named Rahab and stayed there.
Even though Rahab was one of the people living in Jericho, she chose to rescue the spies from the king who wanted to kill them. She hid them on the roof of her house under stalks of flax. The king’s searchers were sent away to look for the spies, for she told them that the two men had left. After all was safe, she went to the spies and explained her decision to save them.
Joshua 2:8-9
Before the spies lay down for the night, she went up on the roof and said to them, “I know that the Lord has given you this land and that a great fear of you has fallen on us, so that all who live in this country are melting in fear because of you.
Rahab, a pagan, idol worshipper, Gentile, prostitute; believed the word of Lord. She knew that her land would be conquered by Israel, just as God had said. She had faith in the plan of God. Remember, the nation of Israel did not believe this word forty years earlier and were forced to wander the wilderness. Yet, this woman had faith and requested help from the spies.
Joshua 2:12-13
“Now then, please swear to me by the Lord that you will show kindness to my family, because I have shown kindness to you. Give me a sure sign that you will spare the lives of my father and mother, my brothers and sisters, and all who belong to them—and that you will save us from death.”
The spies told her to tie the scarlet cord to her window as a sign between them. Everyone in the house would be saved.
Joshua 2:21b
So she sent them away, and they departed. And she tied the scarlet cord in the window.
Because Rahab rescued the spies and followed the covenant by keeping the cord tied in the window, she and her family were saved.
Joshua 6:22-23
Joshua said to the two men who had spied out the land, “Go into the prostitute’s house and bring her out and all who belong to her, in accordance with your oath to her.” So the young men who had done the spying went in and brought out Rahab, her father and mother, her brothers and sisters and all who belonged to her. They brought out her entire family and put them in a place outside the camp of Israel.
Not only was Rahab saved from battle, she became a part of the Israelite community.
Joshua 6:25
But Joshua spared Rahab the prostitute, with her family and all who belonged to her, because she hid the men Joshua had sent as spies to Jericho—and she lives among the Israelites to this day.
Not only did she become a part of the Israelite community, Rahab put away her life of prostitution and became a wife and a mother. Not just any mother, she became a part of a kingly lineage:
Matthew 1:5-6a
Salmon the father of Boaz, whose mother was Rahab, Boaz the father of Obed, whose mother was Ruth, Obed the father of Jesse, and Jesse the father of King David.
Rahab was the great-grandmother of King David. This means that she is one of the many great grandmothers to Jesus Himself! Rahab, the Gentile prostitute, became a part of the genealogy that led to the Savior of the world.
How does this relate to my original question to the Lord of His timing for the end of my difficult situation? Here is what the Lord was telling me. If Israel had been faithful and conquered Jericho forty years earlier, Rahab would not have been born. She would not have had the opportunity to choose faith in God and to see the rescue of her entire family. She would not have become a part of the Israelites, married, and had children. She would not have been a part of the line that ultimately birthed Jesus, the Savior of the world!
What seems a delay to us, may be an orchestration for other people’s lives and other people’s families to be eternally changed! Our pain, our suffering, our “desert times”, may be a divine set-up for others to come to Christ. God’s answer for us to “wait” is giving others time to be saved.
2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
My focus must switch. Instead of asking “How long”, I instead should ask the Lord to rescue more and more “Rahabs” during this time of delay. We will see Christ “birthed” into our situations. Lives will be changed. “Rahabs”, those far from the Lord, will become a part of the people of God. We will celebrate what God has done. Every delay will become a reason for thanksgiving.
Hold on, dear friend, your deliverance will come and the lives of others will be delivered as well. Just like Rahab.
